when i was born pluto was at 19 degrees of scorpio
i am a sagittarius ascendant with mars in sagittarius in my first house obviously
then i have uranus, neptune, the sun, mercury and saturn in my second house in capricorn
and as a bonus- my moon is in gemini
so as you may already guessed it
in this particular order:
pluto conjunct my ascendant, my mars, opposite my moon, conjunct my uranus, conjunct my neptune, conjunct my saturn, conjunct my sun, conjunct my mercury (and now it has slowly moved away from my sun mercury at 18 degrees- and is now retrograding back from 20th degree of capricorn)
not to mention that lovely t-square from 2016 between jupiter/pluto/uranus- yep you guessed it- my sun and mercury were a lovely and almost exaclyt to the degree - participating in this wonderfyl t-square- and that exact same time good old saturn hit my ascendant, conjuncted my mars, and continued to retrograde almost half a year opposite my natal moon
ok look, from what i can see- and i dont want to be over the top here - you have an AMAZING chart- like- what the..?- exalted first lord venus in the 11th house i mean come on- jupiter is trining your sun- - such a beneficial amazing aspect to have really! yes you have a cappie moon maybe its not the best of moons- but it is trining your ascendant- and sits in the house of luck and happiness and bliss-the 9th. you have saturn in the 11th- the original house of saturn- and mars is in pisces- whilst dispositor jupiter is in scorpio- meaning they are exchanging their energies for your benefit- mars and jupiter are friends and every time they conjunct or aspect each other- its a very very good aspect.
but then on to pluto- literally pluto is EXACTLY trining your exalted first lord venus from his OWN SIGN- furthermore- your natal pluto is sextiling that whole stellium you have in capricorn there- its sextiling it. because of my natal cappie stellium- my natal pluto also sextiles that- and i can tell you this for sure because i have just been through this and believe me- you dont have all your planets in the middle that awful t-square back then- this year your in luck- because jupiter is sextiling all of your cappie planets AND trining all of your pisces planets- AND you are in the middle of your jupiter return- which means- luck and blessings all around- especially which such aspects- and dont forget saturn is also now in capricorn which means he is strong there- the dispositor of your stellium is in its own sign- not like with me when he was in sagittarius- and jupiter who is the lord of sagittarius was fighting off pluto and uranus.
i understand exactly what you are going through and i will share what happened to me so you can stop worrying
it all started with a neptune square ascendant transit in 2015- lets say that was the breaking point- im guessing for you its the uranus square moon transit- everything back then looked like i stepped in to a horror movie- my life was shattered i was broken- i too convinced of something being wrong with my and my mind- went to numerous doctors that said i had adhd, anxiety disorder, depression, ptsd and what not- and i agreed fully- surely if my life looks like this i must be mentally ill - and i did the medication and i went to the therapist and i did the tests and eventually- due to circumstances i had to interrupt my treatment- and thats when neptune stopped squaring my ascendant- pluto started to slowly conjunct my saturn sun and mercury stellium- and let me tell you this- and especially since your natal pluto makes such amazing aspects- it turned everything around for me
think about it- its not opposing nor squaring- its CONJUNCTING- meaning plutos energies are now blending with your natal planets- pluto is deep core soul-level transformation, its also power, its a small planet- but when it does something- it is never small- pluto gave me the inner strength and resilience to get through all my troubles with grit and determination- it elimated everything i did not need- it burned away all my insecurities and i started fresh- and it has given me more than i could ever ask for- it has made me so strong, self-assured, confident, in love with life- that everything it did took away- and all the mistakes i had made before- are now something i see as a point of strength- not weakness. pluto has made everything better- not in the happy-go-lucky kind of way- but in a way that is much better, will benefit me much more and my life will thankfully never be the same- and so will i.
did you know some people will never live long enough to experience such a pluto transit- some will never know what its like to have pluto conjunct their personal planets- pluto didnt just come there by default- you are chosen to have this transit- over many millions that will never have it- its not there to hurt you- its there to help you. wait for pluto- and make the best of it- use it- use it fully- your chart is amazing, i believe you are about to find out how amazing it really is- and i believe pluto will be the main reason you actually do.
good luck and dont worry- the worst is over- now its time to take control and with full force ahead start your life.