Jettabor
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Hello All,
My brain and heart are under massive strain. I've been experiencing a Pluto square Moon passage since April 2021, I have approx 2 more years to go. I have Pluto opposite Moon in my natal chart so these crushed feelings are not exactly new, just highly exacerbated. I am currently looking for some bright points in my transits or natal charts to focus on ( I need to summon strength) if anyone might take a look to help me find a kernal of light in the dark, that would be much appreciated!
I've got Pluto in the 4th, in Libra in my birth chart, impacting my moon in the 10th house in Aries. My mother has deeply affected my life since birth, she has multiple diagnosed mental illnesses, and could not be a mother to me in any way as a child. At the start of the pandemic, she began to de-compensate and lose day to day functions, she is in her 70's I am 40. I was forced to move in to her crumbling house and begin to repair it for sale as she was compelled into retirement, and has scant savings.
I've turned to my other family members for help, and only one Aunt has grudgingly agreed to assist, by providing temporary housing for my mother while I repair her home for sale. I am not a home builder by profession, all of this is extremely difficult. I had to leave my spouse 2 thousand miles away to perform these tasks, and its tested our relationship to the breaking point. One of the worst details in all of this is that my mother vacillates between acting like a 12 year old child, and a full grown vindictive woman, with 99 percent of the vitriol directed my way. Since April 2021 I have been alone in my childhood home (where abuse towards myself occurred from the ages of 10 -16) literally repairing gouges and punctures in the wall plaster where my mother's violent ex husband, and son punched and kicked their way to hundreds of dollar worth of property damage.
In this time I've trained all of my energy on resolving my mother's issues, I have no friends in this area, as I moved away as a teenager, I have no way to make money, as I am in farmland hundreds of miles from an economic center. I hold my sanity by listening to podcasts and cross country skiing. It is breaking me, I am very strong, but I desperately need encouragement.
Thanks!
Jet
Hello All,
My brain and heart are under massive strain. I've been experiencing a Pluto square Moon passage since April 2021, I have approx 2 more years to go. I have Pluto opposite Moon in my natal chart so these crushed feelings are not exactly new, just highly exacerbated. I am currently looking for some bright points in my transits or natal charts to focus on ( I need to summon strength) if anyone might take a look to help me find a kernal of light in the dark, that would be much appreciated!
I've got Pluto in the 4th, in Libra in my birth chart, impacting my moon in the 10th house in Aries. My mother has deeply affected my life since birth, she has multiple diagnosed mental illnesses, and could not be a mother to me in any way as a child. At the start of the pandemic, she began to de-compensate and lose day to day functions, she is in her 70's I am 40. I was forced to move in to her crumbling house and begin to repair it for sale as she was compelled into retirement, and has scant savings.
I've turned to my other family members for help, and only one Aunt has grudgingly agreed to assist, by providing temporary housing for my mother while I repair her home for sale. I am not a home builder by profession, all of this is extremely difficult. I had to leave my spouse 2 thousand miles away to perform these tasks, and its tested our relationship to the breaking point. One of the worst details in all of this is that my mother vacillates between acting like a 12 year old child, and a full grown vindictive woman, with 99 percent of the vitriol directed my way. Since April 2021 I have been alone in my childhood home (where abuse towards myself occurred from the ages of 10 -16) literally repairing gouges and punctures in the wall plaster where my mother's violent ex husband, and son punched and kicked their way to hundreds of dollar worth of property damage.
In this time I've trained all of my energy on resolving my mother's issues, I have no friends in this area, as I moved away as a teenager, I have no way to make money, as I am in farmland hundreds of miles from an economic center. I hold my sanity by listening to podcasts and cross country skiing. It is breaking me, I am very strong, but I desperately need encouragement.
Thanks!
Jet