The 9th house is the conception house with Venus as it’s ruler found in the 1st house at 3Libra. Venus is semi-square Mars in Scorpio, hence control issues will always play a vital role in the life. Considering what you found out about dear ole’ dad, it’s not surprising you’d want to control your love life to a greater extent even though it may be a subconscious thing most of the time. At least you know the source which then can help in the future. Venus is also square to Uranus, so themes of separation and estrangement in the love life throughout. Venus (ruler of the conception) square the 4th house (where Uranus is located with Neptune (deception) and the Moon i.e. mother. It’s a very busy 4th house and the 4th of course is our foundation, where we keep our home both early on and as we build a home in adult life.
Sun in Scorpio, 19th degree tends to see life and experiences, in black & white tones, seldom or never in gray ones. Its either good/bad – beautiful/ugly. And occasionally because of this behavior pattern, you may find others acting out in the opposite way which then brings the things to light you must face in yourself in the objective world even though they are subjective flaws or traits. Therefore, the clashing of values, etc.
You have Sun Quintile (a creative helpful aspect) to Saturn (ruler of your detriment Moon in Capricorn) In detriment (not helping), emotions i.e. Moon – because the opposite sign is the Moon’s actual ruler, i.e. Cancer a water sign. In Capricorn, the emotions can be seen as drier, not easily disturbed and some might judge as colder. YET, having this creative aspect of Quintile to your Moon’s ruler (Saturn) is helping you to see through different lenses, to understand logically what is going on in your own life and WHY your emotions can be as they are.
Its interesting in a sense you subconsciously were attracted to one who disappointed you so gravely as to cause the breakup. (Venus square Uranus in 4th) – Yet we must remember too in life, it’s a give and take in relationships,
My maternal grandmom was a Scorpio Sun through and through, and as I’d cry my heart out at her feet while she sat in her rocker, she’d say “poor Deb, you must learn that life is never 50-50, and one will always love more then the other” She went on to explain that relationships may be 60-40, 55-45, but that 5% difference will come to light between the two of you. WHO loves the more? To make the first step…Grandmom didn’t stop there, she went on to say, “make sure next time, its HIM who is the one who loves more or you will always be crying”…..
(seemed a bit cold but I’ve learned that she was right…..at least for me)