Well - just a final update.
I had to end it. We just couldn't make it work. I thought that being in love is overrated and respect is more important. But the thing is, it is the love that keeps you curious about a person, it is the love that makes you like all the little weird things about a person, that other people may find annoying. It is the love and attraction, that keeps people together, for better and for worse.
Without this love, I just felt sad after being with him - because for some weird reason, we both worked really hard to make this work, but it just didn't feel right. I got bored with him, and his passive ways to be in this relationship. We didn't make each other happy. But we had our own specific reasons to try to make it work.
I found out what the combustion was all about. He told me his last exgirlfriend had been stalking him after the split up - to a point where he nearly thought she had somebody following him. It was quite traumatic for him - That lasted for six month - and after that, he has kind of unconsciously shut down for being open to women and even sex - even though he in a way wanted it. He just couldn't. So maybe he saw me as a good candidate for a girlfriend - but he just couldn't open op. That piece of information and suddenly it all made sense.
And I turned cold nearly on the day that Mars went into virgo. ( me being in Venus fall - I guess he was the one who was supposed to turn cold or ? And maybe he did ? He never contacted me again after I ended it )
I still like him though - as a friend. We are still friends on Facebook. I wish him the best, but that was just not enough.
