I'm basically a dreamer. This has been a life-long pattern I want to change. Romantic relationships are almost always unstable. Thank you all.
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Two things I didn't address from your original post ..........
One is the dreaming ..... That's Neptune in the 1st, and its relationship with Mars and Moon. I also am a dreamer, and always have been, even though with Cap Rising I
appear to be on task and in charge of what I'm doing. In my head I may be miles away, doing something else entirely.
I call it a survival mechanism, because Real Life is often so harsh and unrelenting.
Two is the instability of romantic liaisons. Look at it this way .......
If you (quite automatically, withouteven trying) become the very person your partner wants and needs, then they will want you to remain that way - forever. When you try to move out of that place (of virtual slavery to the wants of another) this causes an angry reaction in them, and a push to get you back into the role you had when they first became attracted to you. We tend to be attracted to people who need us - and we enjoy being needed ....... for a while - and it is this need of us which eventually drains us, so that resentment builds, and we wish to make changes.
As I see it (and I have never managed to achieve this) we need to only allow ourselves to have romantic attachments to someone who is not with us for what we can do for them. That means we have to find someone who is their own person. (And do such people actually exist???)
[On this topic of being-what-the-other-needs, I married someone who needed me to be his mother ........ which I didn't see clearly, chiefly because I chose to deny it. Eventually I decided that I was prepared to mother my children but not him, so I left. He is now married to a woman who has never had children, so she is quite happy to `mother' him, including chastising him like he's a naughty child. Strangely, he loves it.]