BAYANARIZASEVIYORUM
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Hi i am new here. I feel lost in my direction & insecure in my purpose of life. A little bit of background-As you can see from my chart i am pretty old and yet I am suffering from low self esteem/low confidence even at this point in my life.I sort of avoid crowds(especially coz i start to compare & see how active they are) and i am very passive & non confrontational. I have held some low paying jobs over the years-on & off-but no fixed career. I have terrible communication skills/social skills but also in general very uninterested in casual conversations.Also writing comes slowly to me/extremely difficulty.Yet i daydream a lot about where i'm very active(performing on stage/being rich & successful/being active & energetic/giving orders & being a leader). I live inside my head.I just wanted to discuss a couple of things-
1)how does a 12th house stellium squared by saturn in 3rd house effect me?
Also i have lord of the 10th & 12th in 12th house. also virgo 10th house. what professions would be suitable to me?
2)I know saturn in 3rd causes poor communication but how does it impact learning/intelligence? I feel like i need a thorough understanding of subject instead of spontaneously grasping stuff.
3)neptune/uranus 2nd house-i am near fatalistic after reading explanation of this placement on internet. i feel like i'm going to die out of poverty.someone with this placement can have a very passive aggressive attitude towards earning their own money AND may not understand boundaries when it comes to money... may not feel too much guilt when it comes to taking/giving money etc..i have this at a tight orb...very confused about the whole money aspect of life...should i allow myself to feel this way? are there people with this placement who had positive experience- financial stability throughout life.
4)mars in 12th house-apparently makes me a spirtual warrior. or maybe into arts but i have never been able to recognize/explore my creativity(don't know how to recognize)Other than helping me suppress my anger this hasn't help me with anything...like I really don't understand what i want out of a career.what could be career prospect of 12th house dominant?
5)do pluto in 12th house scorpio make for a good psychologist? was in a discussion earlier where it was pointed out that planet & signs aren't that important but house is more important..& that prominent 8th house placements are most common in the charts of psychologists. 8th house vs 12th house. 12th house is also collective subconscious and uncovering secrets... what do u think?
6)What are your thoughts about lack of earth & fire, on top of that lots of water, very little air.I am overly sensitive & emotional but lack practicalities/groundedness/confidence/energy .can these things be instilled if you're not born that way?
I guess I am really confused how a heavy 12th houser like myself survive in this material world?? How do i bring money...
I feel like i am very emotional/sensitive AND i have to 'feel it' to really work/do a job/feel engaged.
tldr: have been crying real tears for past few years. Friends here, asking for birth chart interpretation to help me figure out my career path.i want to choose something & be masterful at that thing.
my chart-
https://imgur.com/yHoODT9
1)how does a 12th house stellium squared by saturn in 3rd house effect me?
Also i have lord of the 10th & 12th in 12th house. also virgo 10th house. what professions would be suitable to me?
2)I know saturn in 3rd causes poor communication but how does it impact learning/intelligence? I feel like i need a thorough understanding of subject instead of spontaneously grasping stuff.
3)neptune/uranus 2nd house-i am near fatalistic after reading explanation of this placement on internet. i feel like i'm going to die out of poverty.someone with this placement can have a very passive aggressive attitude towards earning their own money AND may not understand boundaries when it comes to money... may not feel too much guilt when it comes to taking/giving money etc..i have this at a tight orb...very confused about the whole money aspect of life...should i allow myself to feel this way? are there people with this placement who had positive experience- financial stability throughout life.
4)mars in 12th house-apparently makes me a spirtual warrior. or maybe into arts but i have never been able to recognize/explore my creativity(don't know how to recognize)Other than helping me suppress my anger this hasn't help me with anything...like I really don't understand what i want out of a career.what could be career prospect of 12th house dominant?
5)do pluto in 12th house scorpio make for a good psychologist? was in a discussion earlier where it was pointed out that planet & signs aren't that important but house is more important..& that prominent 8th house placements are most common in the charts of psychologists. 8th house vs 12th house. 12th house is also collective subconscious and uncovering secrets... what do u think?
6)What are your thoughts about lack of earth & fire, on top of that lots of water, very little air.I am overly sensitive & emotional but lack practicalities/groundedness/confidence/energy .can these things be instilled if you're not born that way?
I guess I am really confused how a heavy 12th houser like myself survive in this material world?? How do i bring money...
I feel like i am very emotional/sensitive AND i have to 'feel it' to really work/do a job/feel engaged.
tldr: have been crying real tears for past few years. Friends here, asking for birth chart interpretation to help me figure out my career path.i want to choose something & be masterful at that thing.
my chart-
https://imgur.com/yHoODT9
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