I cannot relate to you, NeoWarrior83, however I can describe my perspective.
Pluto is transiting my first house over and over again (retro, direct, retro, direct) throughout my horizon line.. What I'm noticing in myself is an extreme personal development every so often (around the time pluto decides to transition between direct and retro)... So I imagine that you must have a VERY intense personality, that is hard to change (my pluto is transiting, yours is natal,)
You know what though? Saturn 1st house people are by far my most looked up to heroes.. Saturn 1st house people are so intense and have such amazing life stories.. They are quite the inspiration and drive to keep moving forward. Such the lesson that Saturn teaches.....
Disclaimer: I'm not an expert