i am a gemini sun, moon, mercury, 8th house stellium which from some sites i've read, those people tend to like something related to death, cult, but those topics triggered my panic attack somehow. is there any other factor that might caused it? as the chart tells me i have kinda heavy 8th house energy. also uh is that possible to not have your ascendant on your 1st house, instead the true node there? thank you so much!