Salme
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Hello!
I have always had troubled relations with Guru figures in my life. Only really Jupiter person (wise, protective, goal setting) was my Grandfather, but he passed away in 1991, when i was 10.
After then I was grown up by women who try to be men, demand respect and obeyance, but constantly fail, because they lack wisdom, practcism and strength. At home they were my Mom (I am the only child) and Aunt (who has no family of her own) - they always quarreled, invested family money very unwisely, ruined their careers. At school there were teachers (mainly women) who forced me to have only A, highest marks. Which was a constant stress, but never worked well for my goals of entering a university I wanted. I had to do it with some difficulty in the end. Plus I kind of got habitual to stress and excessive useless work, doing everything in some stupid rush.
I have two bachelors degrees, but I never got a real true connection to a Professor from none of my universities. None I would call a Teacher with full respect. Though I do appreciate much certain practical knowledge I was given.
My 1st husband commited suicide because of debts. He had serious trauma - he was sexually harassed by his own Mother as a teenager. I was 20 wheen he died.
And we had some hard times with my second husband - mainly because of his childish behaviour. Again his Mother (I don't know if there was any abuse) - but she constantly humiliated him and tried to dominate in all family matters. So it is very hard for him to be responsible, grown up and act with respect - though there is much skills and qualities to be proud of....
Plus when Moon dasha started it all went worse. All my friends short-term aquaintance and network (3rd bhava people) started showing all their evil bad and imbalanced sides (6 bhava from Moon) - and these are a lot of people. The more i try to concentrate on some good thoughts, the more they show mercantile "lower self" sides.
I mainly worked in my life as a journalist \ PR and advertisement exec. Currently I am working on a full length movie based on a fairy tale. It's good beautiful story, plus it is pretty based on Guru energies of wisdom, moral and love to the universe and respect to it's laws. But I thought recently - maybe I shouldn't? Maybe I should avoid Jupiter topics and energies.
Also I though of relocation 2-3 hours westwards. Because I always felt significantly better in northern parts of France, Britain or Ireland. Maybe that happenes because Guru thus moves to kendra, 4th house?
Will appreciate a serious advice based on exprience. Maybe I miss something. Troubled were actually mainly all 10 recent years of Chandra dasha. It felt like lack of appreciation and respect. Like I am investing too much energy into everything - friends, work, relationships - and literally nothing comes back.
Venus and Sun dashas felt much-much easier.
Thank you in advance!
I have always had troubled relations with Guru figures in my life. Only really Jupiter person (wise, protective, goal setting) was my Grandfather, but he passed away in 1991, when i was 10.
After then I was grown up by women who try to be men, demand respect and obeyance, but constantly fail, because they lack wisdom, practcism and strength. At home they were my Mom (I am the only child) and Aunt (who has no family of her own) - they always quarreled, invested family money very unwisely, ruined their careers. At school there were teachers (mainly women) who forced me to have only A, highest marks. Which was a constant stress, but never worked well for my goals of entering a university I wanted. I had to do it with some difficulty in the end. Plus I kind of got habitual to stress and excessive useless work, doing everything in some stupid rush.
I have two bachelors degrees, but I never got a real true connection to a Professor from none of my universities. None I would call a Teacher with full respect. Though I do appreciate much certain practical knowledge I was given.
My 1st husband commited suicide because of debts. He had serious trauma - he was sexually harassed by his own Mother as a teenager. I was 20 wheen he died.
And we had some hard times with my second husband - mainly because of his childish behaviour. Again his Mother (I don't know if there was any abuse) - but she constantly humiliated him and tried to dominate in all family matters. So it is very hard for him to be responsible, grown up and act with respect - though there is much skills and qualities to be proud of....
Plus when Moon dasha started it all went worse. All my friends short-term aquaintance and network (3rd bhava people) started showing all their evil bad and imbalanced sides (6 bhava from Moon) - and these are a lot of people. The more i try to concentrate on some good thoughts, the more they show mercantile "lower self" sides.
I mainly worked in my life as a journalist \ PR and advertisement exec. Currently I am working on a full length movie based on a fairy tale. It's good beautiful story, plus it is pretty based on Guru energies of wisdom, moral and love to the universe and respect to it's laws. But I thought recently - maybe I shouldn't? Maybe I should avoid Jupiter topics and energies.
Also I though of relocation 2-3 hours westwards. Because I always felt significantly better in northern parts of France, Britain or Ireland. Maybe that happenes because Guru thus moves to kendra, 4th house?
Will appreciate a serious advice based on exprience. Maybe I miss something. Troubled were actually mainly all 10 recent years of Chandra dasha. It felt like lack of appreciation and respect. Like I am investing too much energy into everything - friends, work, relationships - and literally nothing comes back.
Venus and Sun dashas felt much-much easier.
Thank you in advance!
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