heidy26
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Here is the thing with my situation. I can see that when I "hurt" myself, I'm doing so in a more Saturnine way than Martial. My Saturn is located in the cadent 3rd house and in a mute sign. Combine all of those and you get a decent enough picture as to how I am when I'm in a self-destructive spiral.
That's not my main gripe though, it's actually the issue of the out-of-sect malefic being done to me because just like you, this is not what I observe in my specific experience. Mars on ascendant might mean I suffer bodily injury from the others (to me instead of because of me). Well, I played a lot of sports when I was smaller and I would get many bangs and bruises regularly and all because of my own particular way of playing. I even had a nasty head injury when I was 2 because I climbed up on some furniture and it turned over on me.
Both malefics seem to work in the "because of me" fashion instead of the "because of/to me" fashion. That's why I'm wondering about the OOS Malefics mostly.
You can look at it this way: who did those injures to the physical body ? If you weren't harming yourself [and I suppose you weren't picking on the other players], I presume they were caused by others. I am assuming that most of your injures are to the head. So were mine.
If you could elaborate how your Saturnine spiral goes when you feel like hurting yourself ? Maybe I can relate though, just made some connections..