WOW Rahu! That is one of the most insightful things I've ever read about myself!!! Thank you so much! I vibe with every single thing you've written. This is a reminder of how incredibly complex human beings are because while I was zeroing in on one aspect of my creative Self on my post in response to Rhys, you brought up many things about relationships/sexuality that had fallen to the back of my mind while interpreting. It's true about abuse, darkness and the extremities to which sexuality has been experienced in my life. I am a lesbian, which I see all over my chart, even though everyone seems to disagree that one can spot homosexuality in a chart. But having Venus in Libra (an extreme need for equality in relationships) along with that "bailey/node midpoint conjunct to Sappho" you referenced, that seems to point pretty strongly to my sexuality. I've had quite a lot of brief, intense relationships which were usually structured around sex and darkness with no commitment and a lot of emotional suffering, which I've been entirely attributing to the Mars in Scorpio, but it's very interesting to see all of these other factors that contribute to that dynamic. She and I never actually had sex, so I've been basically celibate for well over a year (which interestingly aligns with the lack of art I was describing in my response to Rhys...) reminds me of this "you mars/orcus midpoint is conjunct to your sun and chiron. on one hand this can giver very carnal sexual desires but it can also oshow you have be "hurt"or abused. the result can be a abhorrence or at least a avoidance of sexual intimacy at times" that you wrote!
<snip> I haven't created art in over a solid year now. <snip>
I'd love to hear any and everything you spot that could be unique or interesting about my chart!
Let this be your lifelong goal - discernment.
One of your weaker aspect is conformity. You are easily swayed and like to keep the peace and upsets even to if its detrimental to your own convictions.
I find it important to remember that Saturn’s energy doesn’t have to work out that way. The lesson it is teaching is that the way you dealt with your 4th house Ceres/Venus, indeed the entire stellium, has become outmoded with respect to your evolutionary growth, i.e. that the approach you used during adolescence towards art would no longer work. Saturn appears to be demanding new approaches. It’s all about looking inwards and feeling your way (Cancer ascendant/Moon chart ruler!) to something new that will work for you.
I'm just teasing: You said say something cool! With all that Libra You're hot air! Cool air! You're flirting with other Millennials. Chase me and catch me if you can! Then the Libra's always smile and laugh!hi Rainy Skies
the first new and cool something is that your Uranus/Neptune conjunction is square to your node.
this gives very strong astral and visionary abilities. it suggest you have vivid dreams that often are prophetic. wit Neptune ,you cab have visions or dreams that continue into your waking hours or occur during waking hours. this pattern gives a very sharp wit with great intelligence. it give great force to your ideas and you have the ability to manifest almost any idea you come up with.
but this concentration of psychic connections can also confuse when to much psychic input comes in. it this situation you can revert to mental confusion and inability to make choices or decisions .
your moon is conjunct you node and so these energies are strengthened, this makes you very straight forward yet extremely sensitive at the same time.your intuitions are usually correct.
as the moon is conjunct to mercury you mind is strengthen and you intellect and your emotions work in harmony.
you sun in libra is usually associated with one who cherishes harmony but you have chiron conjunct your so so you are very analytical, inquisitive and critical at times. you are a born investigator and have always wanted top know the truth behind the facades of life, or you are interested in what is behind the standard society sets up.
you are very straight forward but lack tact at times because when you see a fault you feel the need to expose it whether this action will cause problems or resentment.
with Jupiter opposed t Lilith you are a born teacher. you inherently absorb and seek knowledge and this pursuit is felt by you peers and friends who always seek input of your opinions because you are always correct and just.
you sun/moon midpoint is conjunct to Venus giving you a truly loving and understanding nature. your mercury/chiron midpoint is also conjunct venus so you can be a very intense partner in relationships because you want to know very thing about your other. you want to know there inner feelings and how they tick. this can lead to a very close intimacy but if the relationship goes south then very harsh emotions can be express because you know each others weakness as well as their strength.
sometimes this intense scrutiny of the other becomes to much and your unrelenting need to know their innermost heart can in fact drive them away.
your venus/mars midpoint is also conjunct you node fiving you amazing attractive physical/emotional and psychic attractiveness. you are very sexual and emotive and many succumb to your charms as you aura is strong and you can have an affect on others unbeknownst to themselves .with Uranus square to mars/Venus your sexual chemistry is off the scales and I would think that you can meet and communicate with intimate friends or lover during vivid astral dreams.
eris opposed to moon/mercury/venus, is another indices of a extremely sexually passionate nature. but eris can be too sexual and you have a struggle between those attracted wholly to your body and those who are attracted buy your love.
all and all these intense emotional/sexual energies can result in many affairs that may be intense but brief. wiht Neptune squaret to node there is also the image of deceit and unfaithfulness.
your eros is quintile to your psyche which again shiws that you have a romantic and idealized emotional nature that needs to know the innermost feelings of your other. here the midpoint is conjunct to sedna, which shows you prize truthfulness in relationships above all other characteristics.
so though you have strong "wanton" emotional impulses, you actually are looking for sincerity and consistency in relationships.
but you do have a "dark" side that most who know you would never suspect.
you mars/orcus midpoint is conjunct to your sun and chiron. on one hand this can give very carnal sexual desires but it can also oshow you have be "hurt"or abused. the result can be a abhorrence or at least a avoidance of sexual intimacy at times. this could result in some situations where you re very excited emotional and then for some reason you find a fear or avoidance replacing the previous attraction.
you pluto is conjunct to ixion and the vertex which is again a very dark impulse that often shows extreme abuse in your childhood. as this conjunction is square to your named asteroid ,bailey, it seems this inner fear is central to your personality structure. that is for all your attractive and optimistic outgoing energies, these energies always revolve around a certain inner insecurity, unspoken and usually unrevealed.
the bailey/pluto and bailey midpoints are conjunct your mercury/venus midpoint. this shows that even when you are displaying you most joyous and enchanting side of yourself, you still have a darkness, a uncertainty at the back of your mind.
Sappho is sextile to your pluto/ixion conjunction and these midpoints are conjunct your node, so I would think that you may have intimate friends that share these hidden "fears". and with the bailey/node midpoint conjunct to Sappho,it may be that you are more at ease emotional with those of your same sex. but whatever , it is clear you are a pillar of light to your peer group ,as you command respect of emotional/physical and spiritual- psychic levels.
rahu