Interesting response!! Wow! Ok, ok, so... I do feel callous oftentimes with love. It seems like everyone is "in love" with me. I say that and realize it sounds quite narcissistic, but there's no point to share that other than to be honest to get honest help... but, back to what I was saying, everyone seems to be head over heels when they meet me. Jokes around our office because clients seem to have an affinity, my boyfriends and even the one I have now has always seemed to always be upset when men compliment me or hit on me, and I've had a slew of- in my eyes- bad luck (since I am dating someone seriously) where both male and female friends have confessed their feelings for me.
Usually these friends and I struggle to continue a friendship afterwards.
I've been in some bad relationships where men have spun stories to keep me focused on them... and no one else, as it were. I'm in a relationship that isn't anything like that now, but I struggle OFTEN believing that anyone can really love or care for me. I don't struggle with feelings of jealousy although I've been cheated on before, for me it's performance anxiety.
Am I equal to them? Do I do enough? Share enough? How can I show them love to receive it in turn. Jupiter square Venus is real let me tell you haha... I'm aware and working on it, but I struggle a lot to feel comfortable with someone.
And any relationship I've ever been in, I've broken off, which perhaps could be Saturn square Uranus or the Jupiter square Venus? I'm unsure.
But I hold myself to high standards, but I really don't think I hold them to high standards. I've found disappointment in my past relationships, because they lived in disgusting living conditions, weren't going anywhere with work, wandering eyes, or had flighty behaviors.
Perhaps these experiences make me a bit callous in love, which is why I'm both excited and scared to have this new person in my life who I love so dearly who seems to check every box!