Wow, thank you so much for taking the time and analysing my chart!
Dear OuterPlanets89,
1) Thanks for highlighting that I have a reserved chart, never thought about it this way. I don't know what to think about the dynamic in the mother/father roles in our home. You mean at my parent's or my house?
2) Good to have a confirmation that I need to put more work in, but at the end it will reap rewards. I also think that discipline and routine can help me the most. I just need complete solitude and peace to be able to focus.
3) Hearing about your mother is also very encouraging. It is never too late. I am definitely maturing late....
For me it is very difficult to go easy on myself and I found the quarantined life as a very good opportunity to make choices for my future life. I don't like my job, although I still have it in these crazy times and I am paid good. But I did have a burn-out in 2019. As many others around me...
I am also thinking of studying astrology, which I have been attracted to since young age, but never realized it apart from some self-study. My other idea was also to get into IT and programming as a careershift.
Apart from searching for courses and doing an IT course online, I do just think about these things so far... Still need to make a decision...
You're welcome!
Keep in mind that Saturn often delays "success," and with NN pointing towards your final direction, it makes sense why you might be frustrated about the "lack of materialization" of your goals. But it also rewards hard work, and it sounds like you know what needs to be done. The hard part is figuring out the daily steps needed, and sticking to it of course. Developing your Saturn will be key, but unfortunately it's not strongly aspected, so there's no obvious answer as to how you can best tap into this energy.
As for family, I was talking about your dad/mom. Most people I know with an early Libra ASC have a unique theme of finding balance due to having signs in opposite houses, which goes along with Libra's natural purpose. My little brother has a Cancer MC/Capricorn IC and my mom was the Saturnian figure in the house to him.
- 1/7 Axis (Interacting; self-interest vs. other-centric): Libra ASC means Aries rules the 7th, meaning you might come off as friendly and charming in public (Pluto in the 1st changes this, but it does offer magnetism), but might be ruthless in relationships (7th).
- 2/8 Axis (Possessing; objects/security bring power vs. people/psychological influence bring power): This one's difficult to figure out, but with the Moon (2nd) and Chiron (8th) involved, it's key to study this axis, and figure out where your wounds lie.
- 3/9 Axis (Thinking; micro-facts/communication vs. macro-intuition): Having Neptune in the 3rd can be difficult, as it blurs a lot of the tangible thinking needed to make things happen. I'm curious as to how a Gemini Venus/Mars in the 9th would play out. I have family members with Gem/9th and Sag/3rd placements, and they're difficult to figure out.
- 4/10 Axis (Separating; private/family life vs. public/career life): With Cancer Sun on the MC, it could mean that you might be seen as loving and kind, but had a cold/strict home environment growing up (Cap IC).
- 5/11 Axis (Identity; self-expression vs. group/society focused): With Saturn and your NN in the 11th, I'd say that the "secret" towards finding that Saturnian structure likely lies in 11th house matters -- friendships, humanitarian efforts, out-of-the box subjects etc...but the 11th H is one of the more complicated houses to define, or so I've found. I have several planets there.
- 6/12 Axis (Serving; the practical vs. the spiritual): You have no planets in either, but with Virgo in the 12th, it can mean that you gloss over details.
Basically, there are a lot of conflicting energies there, which feeds right into your Libra ASC's tendency towards indecision (I have a Libra ASC too, but in late degrees). I'm guessing there's a strong inner-voice that stops you from doing A/B because your brain likely sees both sides of an issue right away (i.e. "I want to go into an esoteric field...or maybe not, it probably won't pay the bills").
But it also means that you likely think and introspect more than most, which can be a gift.