What is the issue?
You ask -- Am I doomed to be controlled like a puppet in a way I cannot control my life?
Yup.
Me too.
And my next door neighbor.
And my grandkids.
It's the nature of things.
If you "have done a fair bit in your life", then what is your concern?
You have, it seems, missed the point of my previous post.
Let me share Manilius with you --
"Fate rules the world; all things stand fixed by its immutable laws.
And the long ages are assigned a predestined course of events.
At birth our death is sealed, and our end is consequent upon our beginning.
Fate is the source of riches and kingdoms, and the more frequent poverty.
By fate are men, at birth, given their skills and characters,
their merits and defects, their losses and gains.
No one can renounce what is bestowed, or possess what is denied.
No man, by prayer, may seize fortune if it demur, or escape if it draw nigh.
Each one must bear his appointed lot."
Marcus Manilius
Paul has this to say in Romans 9:20-21:
Nay but, O man, who art thou that repliest against God? Shall the thing formed say to him that formed it, Why hast thou made me thus? Hath not the potter power over the clay, of the same lump to make one vessel unto honour, and another unto dishonour?
I would imagine that if we conducted a poll among the two dozen best and most experienced astrologers on this forum, twenty or so would say that a person can, at least to some appreciable extent, change their character and destiny. After over 4 decades spent studying astrology, I am among the four or so who agree with Manilius.
This forum, especially the "Traditional Astrology" section, is full of detailed and specific aphorisms regarding the course of a man's life and his inner nature. A certain position (of the stars) might indicate that things begin well, seem to flower, and then suddenly wither on the vine, for example. Much of astrological learning is dedicated to these "fine points" of predicting a person's destiny. And surprisingly it works.
It is only my opinion (an opinion based on long observation and experience), but I think we really have very little to say about the nature of our lives. We are pretty much stuck with learning how to do the best we can with what we have been given.
Says the Gita: "Because thou art in the bondage of Karma, of the forces of thine own past life; and that which thou, in thy delusion, with a good will dost not want to do, unwillingly thou shalt have to do."(Bh.G. 18:60, tr. Mascaro)
You need not believe me. All you need do is learn, in enough detail, what it is your horoscope says, and then watch it unfold as your life progresses. Right now, it seems to me, you are looking for someone to tell you what you want to hear.
I have made no judgment regarding your chart. I haven't seen it. What I've written here are some general ideas about life that I have found useful, and which have a bearing on your original questions.
When there are no planets found in Cardinal signs, "The native is left free to break into the continuity of any chain of events without the slightest risk of antagonizing anybody, or outraging any reasonable set of standards.... The individual is able to enter the arena of his own special world entirely at his own convenience and in consequence to establish and maintain a rather full control of all eventualities." [M.E. Jones, The Essentials of Astrological Analysis, p.293]
