here is my chart as well
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sara,
You, too, have an abundance of water planets in water houses - so you are very likely very psychic - and very sensitive to the astral realm.
The family line is very well seen in the chart: Ruler of 4th house is Saturn(r) in the 9th. Ruler of the 11th house is Mercury in Pisces in the 4th. Mercury in Pisces as ruler of the 11th can show an innate ability to communicate with your Spirit Guides and Angels - in 4th, it is a heretidary trait. Also, co-ruler of 4th- Uranus(r) in Scorpio/12th.
There seems to be some kind of issue with your mother, maybe? Ruler of 4th, Saturn in Cancer, is retrograde in the 9th. 9th rules communication from parents, and others seen as "teachers/authority figures"/those perceived as having greater intelligence than you. Retrograde is something that needs solving to put into practice.
In addition, it is square the ruler of the 9th, Moon in Libra, cusp of 12th. 12th house is house of self-undoing - and again, Libra can be people pleasing- failure to stand up for oneself. Also, exacerbating this theme, Jupiter/Chiron conjunction on cusp of 6th - feeling like one could not make choices for oneself - a wounding to the sense of self, as attached to God - I AM.
The ruler of 10th is Sun in Pisces on cusp of 5th, inconjunct Moon in Libra cusp of 12th. This, to me, screams victimization of yourself as a child - possibly your mother did not stand up for you in some way - let you be hurt? or you let yourself be hurt? Moon and Sun are inconjunct -meaning seemingly irreconcilable differences.
Ruler of Asc is Mars at the verrrrry last degree of Gemini in the 8th house of anguish, sexuality, and other people's money - trining Moon in Libra, cusp of 12th. Mars is square the 5th house of inner child - also sex, children, etc.
Co-ruler of Asc is Pluto(r) in Libra in the 11th. - trying hard to belong?
Neptune, co-ruler of 5th, is in the 1st, retrograde in Sag. This can often point to past life issues clouding your belief system - or 5th house - inner child issues of having no will, abuse, clouding your decisions. It is semisextile your North Node. ( read: something that is affecting you, but you are unaware of the fact that it is - a blind spot.)
Mercury trines your North Node in 12th - it is part of your destiny to use your psychic abilities in spiritual service.
Have you ever had a past life regression or memories? I would not rule out you being one of those burnt at the stake for being a witch with the placements you have and issues to overcome.
Also, if you are not aware of the concept behind "The Stockholm Syndrome", it would probably help you to do so.
To sum up: Something is severely coulding your belief in yourSelf and what you are receiving from the Spirit realm, despite your long family history of these gifts. Your chart implies you are full of self-doubt, and can be prone to being overly influenced by others.
Hope this helps,
FL