I am unsure, and perhaps others are also unsure of what it is that you are asking.
Do you want to know what your current challenges in life are in a general way? Do you want to know what your love life is likely to be during the next year or so?
Do you not already know what the death's around you have done to you? One of the problems is that when you reach 50, there is an increasing likelihood that people you know will start to die. By the time you reach 90 if you live that long, nearly everyone you every knew in this life will have died.
To get an answer to your questions, you will have to ask more specific questions.