Natal moon conjunct natal Venus in the 3rd house with Capricorn ruling it on my chart. My moon and Venus signs are in Aquarius...I'm thinking that's not a very good combo for love or emotions at all.
I think your shotgun interpretation hit the nail on the head for me.
I am a firm believer in equality. I know we're all equal and that no one is better than anyone. I get irritated when people say otherwise. I can't stand seeing pictures of sick children or animals because I find it disturbing and seeing some of those pictures makes me feel ill. I always feel like an outsider and that I don't fit in anywhere and three years of my life were completely controlled by a religious fanatic father. I'm terrified of airplanes, I just failed out of college, and I'm looking into alternative spiritual forms because I will never have anything to do with organized religion or any Christian-based spiritualities again.
Sounds like you've been going through a lot.
Why wouldn't Aqua Moon/Venus be a good combo? I suppose Aqua isn't the most warm and cuddly sign, but Moon/Venus are unified and the quirkiness of Aquarius is something to embrace, imo. "Equality" is a very Aquarian ideal (values being in the domain of Venus). I imagine you'd be a very egalitarian parent.
Moon in Aqua definitely points to how you might believe your feelings are "wrong" or "weird" or not accepted, even though you show a great deal of empathy. I've noticed personally that showing empathy seems to be taboo (because we're supposed to be tough as nails and empathy is weakness, or something).
Complimenting men on their beards seems a similar taboo.
Interesting post, Flapjacks. But does anybody truly understand somebody else? We're not mind-readers and I would view someone attempting to do so as intrusive. It would be a kind of psychic invasion.
(Chiron in Sag in the third, Aquarian sun, Mercury, Venus.)
Ha. (read my mind? how rude!)
One of my good friends was very upset one day but wouldn't tell me why. We were in high school, so it was something we'd probably look back on and laugh about now. Despite the fact that she was near tears, we had to get to class. We stopped in front of the door, and she stared at me and appeared to be concentrating very hard on my eyes.
I said, "I'm so sorry. I can't read your mind. I don't know what is wrong or why you're upset. I wish I did so you wouldn't have to tell me."
She relaxed her face, didn't say anything, and we went to class.
It felt like I failed her.
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Another instance where Chiron showed itself was when I was asked to give a speech (3rd house Mercury, ruler of Chiron, Gemini = speech) about myself (1st house, Leo) to a large audience. I've only done that once. It was a very bizarre experience. I felt like I lost all sense of self on that stage. Nerves got the best of me, but it was like I shut down and just spoke as if I was a different person. I didn't even recognize my own voice. If you've read
The Invisible Man by Ralph Ellison, it is similar to how the protagonist describes speaking to an audience (a very good book, by the way).
At the reception of the event, a man came up to me in tears and said he felt no one else understood what he went through but he knew I did. I didn't know how to respond to him. I didn't know what he went through, but I said something that touched him deeply and I had no idea how to provide whatever healing he was seeking from me. We stood in silence for a while before some other people asked for my attention and I left him. I still wonder if I could have handled that better. That was 10 year ago.
I still have a hard time describing this. It's not that I think we should have psychic powers to communicate. I'm bothered by these divisions and where they blur... if it's a wall or a veil. Contemplating it more than a few seconds feels like falling off a cliff. Perhaps it's also a bit of Saturn conj. DSC that causes this.
Another attempt to explain would be considering the relationship between plants and certain phyla of fungi, which have developed a symbiotic relationship that is difficult to comprehend. They live inside each other. They put out chemical signals to find one another and fuse together, deform one another. Rhizobium bacteria lose their ability to be free-living organisms once they enter the root system of a legume. They shed their cell wall. Totally exposed. Can you imagine an equivalent interaction among humans? Would you shed your skin to live inside someone else, because they provide you with safety and comfort and are much bigger than you? Sometimes I feel that way living within a society.
Creatures interacting with creatures. Merging with creatures, separating from creatures. Misunderstanding each other. Needing each other, being stuck together. It's all very disturbing to me.