I always follow my instincts, it's funny I think it was the nn in 5th house it said The nodal axis wants to get personal and risk a love affair, to have a child etc does apply to an actual relationship? About 4 years I done this exactly, I left my longterm relationship that I had one child with, I took my baby of course, but I pursued a close friend after that I had always been drawn to and risked our friendship and soon after I feel pregnant and we are still together and perfectly happy, is this what that meant, also I have been drawn to my inner child more in the last year than ever before, I am still trying to figure out what she needs, But yes I could talk about this all day, it excites me, I am excited to get enough knowledge and understanding about astrology so I can start reading other people's charts.
Yes, this all has a 5th House feel. The 5th House is about self expression, fun, love affairs, social life, having children, being with children, allowing our own inner kids to play, and the 5th House is about how we entertain ourselves too. Giving astrology readings feels 5th, 8th, 11th and 12th House to me. And 6th if you give readings every day, and 10th House if you are called to be an astrologer professionally.
One more quick question (sorry have a thousand thoughts but this ones been a focus lately) you said I will work in my home Or a home but is there an indicator to my profession, that is something I feel really lost about?
Your Rising is the genre of life movie you need to be producing, directing, costuming, acting in. You incarnated in with the Crrrappy Corn Rising tribe, who are here to be ethical, incorruptable, leaders. So try dressing like and projecting ala Capricorn.
Your Libra Midheaven marks your calling which is probably also your career this life. Libra is ruled by Venus which is conjunct Mercury on your Nadir/IC.
Your calling is also to be a boss, but you will be seen as a Libra sort of boss. People who look deeper, or who know you personally, know that you are actually a Capricorn sort of leader ala your Rising. Your are a humble leader sort, the voice of authority, and someone you can count on.
Now back to your career and calling, more specifically. Libra MH folks make great lawyers and judges. They are often leaders in fashion, or designers. They NEED beauty and crave justice. They are super arty, and often artists. Libra bosses are discreet - my favorite sort of bosses, personally. They revel in TEAM work, they lead others through team dynamics. Not at all autocratic, or authoritarian except a bit when they go TILT! (Libra energy is either amazing and balaced and everything gets done, but you can't see how, or when it got done. Libra energy is master juggler energy - MAGIC. Until someone throws in another ball....TILT)
With Venus conjunct Mercury on your IC, I know you have deep roots, a connection with your ancestors, with Mama Earth, with your own depths, with your family, and/or HOME in a cosmic way. I bet you will want to work from home. But you might do well in Real Estate too, according to your scope. Or be a lawyer into helping on domestic fronts.
Meanwhile, don't forget that the character in this leadership movie of yours, your personality, is Taurus Sun, Gemini Moon. You are actually very Fixed with a very rapid mind and love/need for IMPUT! Your personality isn't going to assume you should be a leader - right? What me? A leader?
But try it. Try putting yourself into leadership roles.
Again, have you ever written down stories, or told stories around the family kitchen? Do you know the story of your grand parents? Have you thought to write about them? Being a writer is being a leader, expressing the voice of authority simply by being the author, as distinct from being the reader. Or go into video or film?
According to astrology expressing your deep artistic self (Venus) and your deep mind (Mercury), sharing your roots, in pioneering new ways (Aries) will express your Libra Midheaven and cause you success.