fullmoonlibra
Well-known member
I envy people with stellia
They know perfectly what they want from life and they can work on a goal and start their life on a normal age. So focused are they!
I'm 26 years old and I'm still in search for what I really want from life.
I have a splash chart which gives me Mercurian traits, and my progression chart is mainly Mercurian too. So I understand the 'having a word to say about every subject, but no profundity'.
I have painted, and I believed I would become a painter, a famous one. Lost interest.
When at college, I studied Psychology, I have my bachelor degree, but didn't finish my Master's degree. Lost interest.
Meanwhile, I started photography courses, because I do take good pictures and have some what talent. And I believed that I would become a photographer, a famous one.
Lost interest.
After that I started to take violin courses and I believed I would become a violinist, a famous one.
Lost interest.
After that I started courses at the film school and I believed I would become a film director, a famous one. Lost interest.
I'm writing columns and there were so many times that I just wanted to stop writing, but I'm forcing myself to keep writing columns, because I don't want to loose interest in writing too. Because that's finally what I want to do.
Because during whole this process, I keep believing that some day I will become a writer, a famous one (of course..)
AND meanwhile I keep making new goals..
I'm playing the piano and I believe that I will make a music album with my own music. I will not be famous maybe, but at least I will feel successful.
Also, I want to have my own art exhibition one day, with my paint works. This is also a factor which will not give fame, but at least I will feel successful...
But now the problem is:
- I feel blocked, cause every day I can't pick one interest on which I can work on.
- I'm afraid I will loose interest again.
- I feel that being a writer is actually my main goal, but I lack the discipline and patience for that (the many stuff I did in which I lost interest is a pure proof)
Is there anything in my chart which is helpful for me, which pops out and is more the thing I should start with, or an aspect where I can focus on, so I will be more unfocused??
The first chart (30 oct) is my progression chart and the second one (5 nov) is my natal chart with transits.
They know perfectly what they want from life and they can work on a goal and start their life on a normal age. So focused are they!
I'm 26 years old and I'm still in search for what I really want from life.
I have a splash chart which gives me Mercurian traits, and my progression chart is mainly Mercurian too. So I understand the 'having a word to say about every subject, but no profundity'.
I have painted, and I believed I would become a painter, a famous one. Lost interest.
When at college, I studied Psychology, I have my bachelor degree, but didn't finish my Master's degree. Lost interest.
Meanwhile, I started photography courses, because I do take good pictures and have some what talent. And I believed that I would become a photographer, a famous one.
Lost interest.
After that I started to take violin courses and I believed I would become a violinist, a famous one.
Lost interest.
After that I started courses at the film school and I believed I would become a film director, a famous one. Lost interest.
I'm writing columns and there were so many times that I just wanted to stop writing, but I'm forcing myself to keep writing columns, because I don't want to loose interest in writing too. Because that's finally what I want to do.
Because during whole this process, I keep believing that some day I will become a writer, a famous one (of course..)
AND meanwhile I keep making new goals..
I'm playing the piano and I believe that I will make a music album with my own music. I will not be famous maybe, but at least I will feel successful.
Also, I want to have my own art exhibition one day, with my paint works. This is also a factor which will not give fame, but at least I will feel successful...
But now the problem is:
- I feel blocked, cause every day I can't pick one interest on which I can work on.
- I'm afraid I will loose interest again.
- I feel that being a writer is actually my main goal, but I lack the discipline and patience for that (the many stuff I did in which I lost interest is a pure proof)
Is there anything in my chart which is helpful for me, which pops out and is more the thing I should start with, or an aspect where I can focus on, so I will be more unfocused??
The first chart (30 oct) is my progression chart and the second one (5 nov) is my natal chart with transits.