Please help me understand my Venus

My Venus has only an inconjunct to Jupiter. There has always been a disconnect between how I perceive my Venus and how people perceive my Venus. I can't connect to the energy of my Venus. I have had people complimenting my appearance, which was the source of my insecurity for long.


What is my Venus doing in my chart?

2nd H natural ruler Venus
and the 8th H have to do with self-esteem
You have planets in both
Personal planets in 2nd H
can give high or low self esteem but I haven't decided on what it depends on.
There are people who are physically beautiful or at least charming and they will feel ugly even if the whole world tells them otherwise. There are others who haven't received any compliment because they are not attractive and they think that others are just jealous of them because they feel like they are extremely attractive lol.

Out of topic
but I'm so jealous of that Jupiter AND Pluto in your 8th H. ****!
Do you want my Jupiter and Venus in 2nd H?
I have high self esteem but no material/money at all, nit getting anything from others either (Saturn in 8th H).
Please give me your 8th H.