I've just discovered today that my mother has the same moon as me - Gemini.
Also I've been reading various interpretations of my own chart and it keeps coming up that my mother is a strong influence in my life(she's a Leo Sun).
Sadly the reality is that our relationship has always been difficult - basically I think we've each been a disappointment to each other(to put it mildly) and each in our own way have created distance either by action or inaction, bad timing etc.
I am the eldest child and female so there is/was bound to be a strong bond (healthy and/or unhealthy). To complicate matters I had an older sister who died at birth... Okay I know this is not talking astrology, just giving some background - I'm wondering if the fact that both my mother and I have Gemini Moons could explain anything?
If I could explain some of this chapter of my past astrologically I think it would be a relief to me psychologically as I often feel a huge mess of conflicting emotions and turmoil surrounding the relationship, which by now is non-existent, and I believe non-reconcilable in any sense that wouldn't do further damage to an already fragile sense of self(mine). But I also go through huge bouts of guilt for how I have behaved in the sense of having not handled things more delicately and having lapses of judgement and allowing my sense of justice to take over, and despite my belief that there is no going back to right the wrongs(for either of us), I feel that this is a burden and sense of regret that I will carry with me forever, in other words a huge failure in terms of what it seems I am here to do/be.
This leads me to the subject of my nodes: In particular I'm wondering if someone can give me an interpretation of my south node conjuncting my midheaven? My chart: placidus, equal
I've searched online but only found one interpretation talking about meeting several others from my past life and that my current life is about being more humble than I was in my past life/lives. I am having trouble with this idea that I might not already be sufficiently humble.
Also it's occurred to me how in recent years at times of facing certain mountains to climb I would think "I must have done some terrible things last time I was here!", a throwaway thought really, or so I thought, but now having read this it feels almost scary that there might be some truth to it.. Anyway I am curious to know does anyone agree/disagree with this interpretation of South Node conjunction Midheaven or have any alternative interpretation, I would really appreciate hearing your perspective.
Also I've been reading various interpretations of my own chart and it keeps coming up that my mother is a strong influence in my life(she's a Leo Sun).
Sadly the reality is that our relationship has always been difficult - basically I think we've each been a disappointment to each other(to put it mildly) and each in our own way have created distance either by action or inaction, bad timing etc.
I am the eldest child and female so there is/was bound to be a strong bond (healthy and/or unhealthy). To complicate matters I had an older sister who died at birth... Okay I know this is not talking astrology, just giving some background - I'm wondering if the fact that both my mother and I have Gemini Moons could explain anything?
If I could explain some of this chapter of my past astrologically I think it would be a relief to me psychologically as I often feel a huge mess of conflicting emotions and turmoil surrounding the relationship, which by now is non-existent, and I believe non-reconcilable in any sense that wouldn't do further damage to an already fragile sense of self(mine). But I also go through huge bouts of guilt for how I have behaved in the sense of having not handled things more delicately and having lapses of judgement and allowing my sense of justice to take over, and despite my belief that there is no going back to right the wrongs(for either of us), I feel that this is a burden and sense of regret that I will carry with me forever, in other words a huge failure in terms of what it seems I am here to do/be.
This leads me to the subject of my nodes: In particular I'm wondering if someone can give me an interpretation of my south node conjuncting my midheaven? My chart: placidus, equal
I've searched online but only found one interpretation talking about meeting several others from my past life and that my current life is about being more humble than I was in my past life/lives. I am having trouble with this idea that I might not already be sufficiently humble.
Also it's occurred to me how in recent years at times of facing certain mountains to climb I would think "I must have done some terrible things last time I was here!", a throwaway thought really, or so I thought, but now having read this it feels almost scary that there might be some truth to it.. Anyway I am curious to know does anyone agree/disagree with this interpretation of South Node conjunction Midheaven or have any alternative interpretation, I would really appreciate hearing your perspective.
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