Night Sky
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End of Capricorn.
Saturn lord of my 5th is in Scorpio in 2nd conjunct Scorpio Pluto.
I would say I only started to have fun following my Saturn return.
I suppose I enjoyed stuff like reading long novels, preferably old classics. Old music like classical again. Death metal. That's the Capricorn way.
For me, I don't think I can have much fun until I've got way more security and power but perhaps that is more to do with Pluto conjunct my 5th lord.
I can admit that love has not been much fun. But maybe it will change some more as I get older. I've learnt quite a few lessons and I know pretty well what I want and what I don't want these days.
Since the cusp is 29 degrees Capricorn it is strange that I would identify with Capricorn in a love setting rather than Aquarius at all. At work, colleagues became my Aquarius friends. But in love and any kind of 5th house thing, I would say it is 100% Capricorn. Age and experience have taught me, if you had asked me when I was younger, I would have avoided the subject or probably shown that I was terrified of it.
Betrayal and rejection have happened, with that position but since Scorpio gets what it wants in the end I'm fairly confident in a Capricorn way of achievable goals.
I want more fun. Since my Saturn return, it's something I'm working on. A plan that may take about 3 years to work out. I can't help it, just the way I do things. I'm going to cover every angle and have every last detail planned so that it won't go wrong again. I've had so much grief in this area, I need to make sure that betrayal is impossible, or rejection. Unfortunately "love yourself" is not going to be enough, tried it. Doesn't work.
I've got the idea that because my 5th lord is in my 2nd it could signify winning money, so I've been playing lotto, cautiously but every week, a little. I didn't used to so much. Waste of money. But due to the position, I thought maybe it is possible. Saturn can give you the goods just as much as any other planet can. If the gains are with age, then I've passed my Saturn return, so it seems like some fun is due now.
Pluto is the unknown quantity there. A radical transformation and power would be nice. If it doesn't happen then I would be disappointed. I really want to turn things upside down. I'm a little bit afraid of Pluto, for its tendency to immorality, towards the possibility of betrayal. So maybe that's why I try to create a safer environment or a clearer set of rules for what I will permit. The idea is, if you get destroyed once, build a castle, get destroyed twice, you need to go on the offensive and destroy your enemies, know their weaknesses, never let it happen again.
But, overall I would say my life's improved since my Saturn Return, fun is increasing in small ways. Perhaps nothing notable at the moment but I am happier. Music sounds better, there is more general enjoyment. I worked pretty hard.
I don't want children at the moment. My sister had a baby and it's a big responsibility. So I would take the same line again there. First I would want to be happy in my castle with a good woman who would be solid and wanted that too. A solid foundation or nothing. With my new niece I'm of the attitude, (she's 10 month old and extremely badly behaved) if she drops a toy and starts crying, I'm not picking it up for her, she should remember she dropped it and she's responsible and I'm not picking it up and she can cry all she likes. I don't want kids right now, I want some fun in my life. Maybe a new laptop if I can afford it for some games. Work on my career, find someone that won't let me down. A lot of things there to consider. I won't let my life be dictated by circumstance, and I am right. When I plan things with caution they go well enough.
Saturn lord of my 5th is in Scorpio in 2nd conjunct Scorpio Pluto.
I would say I only started to have fun following my Saturn return.
I suppose I enjoyed stuff like reading long novels, preferably old classics. Old music like classical again. Death metal. That's the Capricorn way.
For me, I don't think I can have much fun until I've got way more security and power but perhaps that is more to do with Pluto conjunct my 5th lord.
I can admit that love has not been much fun. But maybe it will change some more as I get older. I've learnt quite a few lessons and I know pretty well what I want and what I don't want these days.
Since the cusp is 29 degrees Capricorn it is strange that I would identify with Capricorn in a love setting rather than Aquarius at all. At work, colleagues became my Aquarius friends. But in love and any kind of 5th house thing, I would say it is 100% Capricorn. Age and experience have taught me, if you had asked me when I was younger, I would have avoided the subject or probably shown that I was terrified of it.
Betrayal and rejection have happened, with that position but since Scorpio gets what it wants in the end I'm fairly confident in a Capricorn way of achievable goals.
I want more fun. Since my Saturn return, it's something I'm working on. A plan that may take about 3 years to work out. I can't help it, just the way I do things. I'm going to cover every angle and have every last detail planned so that it won't go wrong again. I've had so much grief in this area, I need to make sure that betrayal is impossible, or rejection. Unfortunately "love yourself" is not going to be enough, tried it. Doesn't work.
I've got the idea that because my 5th lord is in my 2nd it could signify winning money, so I've been playing lotto, cautiously but every week, a little. I didn't used to so much. Waste of money. But due to the position, I thought maybe it is possible. Saturn can give you the goods just as much as any other planet can. If the gains are with age, then I've passed my Saturn return, so it seems like some fun is due now.
Pluto is the unknown quantity there. A radical transformation and power would be nice. If it doesn't happen then I would be disappointed. I really want to turn things upside down. I'm a little bit afraid of Pluto, for its tendency to immorality, towards the possibility of betrayal. So maybe that's why I try to create a safer environment or a clearer set of rules for what I will permit. The idea is, if you get destroyed once, build a castle, get destroyed twice, you need to go on the offensive and destroy your enemies, know their weaknesses, never let it happen again.
But, overall I would say my life's improved since my Saturn Return, fun is increasing in small ways. Perhaps nothing notable at the moment but I am happier. Music sounds better, there is more general enjoyment. I worked pretty hard.
I don't want children at the moment. My sister had a baby and it's a big responsibility. So I would take the same line again there. First I would want to be happy in my castle with a good woman who would be solid and wanted that too. A solid foundation or nothing. With my new niece I'm of the attitude, (she's 10 month old and extremely badly behaved) if she drops a toy and starts crying, I'm not picking it up for her, she should remember she dropped it and she's responsible and I'm not picking it up and she can cry all she likes. I don't want kids right now, I want some fun in my life. Maybe a new laptop if I can afford it for some games. Work on my career, find someone that won't let me down. A lot of things there to consider. I won't let my life be dictated by circumstance, and I am right. When I plan things with caution they go well enough.
I like emotional intensity/honesty in my art and media etc. I like learning what makes people tick.