I've been studying astrology for a little while now and it honestly shocked me that I just never saw that I have a grand cross? I'm newer to aspects than I am to houses and planets so I'm wondering if anyone has any thoughts on what you think of my grand cross in relation to the rest of my chart etc? any thoughts, opinions or insight are very welcome and appreciated <3
Squares provide much tension for personal growth. Without them, life can be pretty boring. A Grand Square usually gives a person a whole lot of ability to grow in some big ways - it keeps the pressure on so that the person is forced to grow and change. Therefore, they can be quite exciting and meaningful to a person.
Since your Saturn - the Lord of Karma - is in Taurus, 5th house (Leo's natural house)- you have had a tendency to not like change so much. Saturn does not like to change and Taurus likes it simple, easy, peaceful and pleasant. A part of you would like to keep it that way. The 5th house is self-identity. So, in my mind, the Grand Square is to help Saturn and Taurus loosen up their stubborn resistance to change.
Then the ruler of the Saturn in Taurus is Venus (conjunct North Node) - and it is in Leo (self-identity) in the 8th house of personal transformation.
Then, the Moon is in Scorpio (along with Chiron saying there's a problem here), the natural sign of the 8th house, in the 11th - where you need and want to separate yourself out from cultural norms - and social pressures to fit in or belong.
Then, Uranus, the "I've got to be me" planet - is in Aquarius in the 2nd house of self-concept, self-value or worth. It is the sign and ruler of the 11th house natural sign and ruler. And the South Node past life wound is conjunct Uranus.
The thing is, in your past life - you were an outsider, different - and you were judged because of it. This is a wound. In this life, it isn't that you want to give up being unique, but you do want to not fear being unique while also fitting in socially, so you can succeed in the world. It's part of the healing you are doing in this life. You are developing a self-identity that is both embracing of your unique qualities while also having qualities that make you socially engaging and charming. You're after a win-win.
When someone is harshly judged, and ostracized, it isn't easy to overcome it. This Grand Square is going to keep you working on it so that it is healed in time and you will be able to successfully share yourself - a unique, shinging light - with the world and be positively recognized and loved for who you are..