The last six months have been extremely difficult for me. Especially August and January. I keep trying to get ahead, and DOING a lot of things, working a lot, etc, but I feel like I'm just spinning my wheels. Making and losing friends, struggling with drinking, moving nowhere closer to a future that I like. Some legal problems are really stressing me out and I think the best thing for me to do would be to make a big change after they are resolved.
I had my own reasons to move back here (technically where I was born) after ten years of living in North Carolina, mostly to cope with some of the same feelings. I dropped out of college, my friends were moving away, I was reeling from a breakup. Going back would feel sort of going back to an ex (seems stupid) but at least I could remember who I was and what I was doing before I lost all my goals here where I am now. I would be closer to the ocean and it would be a step toward finishing my degree. People have asked me about moving back but I don't know how much of that is hot air.
I thought where I am now was a really interesting, special place when I first came back, but I've filled it all with bad memories and constant reminders of things I've failed at. I am not sure it's for me anymore.
Should I move back to North Carolina when I can get my **** straightened out?
I'm literally not sure how to read any of this because I don't know what the significators would be for my current city and my old city, since where I am now is technically where I was born so I could consider either a hometown. Early ascendant moon has me feeling like it's tenuous to say the least.
I had my own reasons to move back here (technically where I was born) after ten years of living in North Carolina, mostly to cope with some of the same feelings. I dropped out of college, my friends were moving away, I was reeling from a breakup. Going back would feel sort of going back to an ex (seems stupid) but at least I could remember who I was and what I was doing before I lost all my goals here where I am now. I would be closer to the ocean and it would be a step toward finishing my degree. People have asked me about moving back but I don't know how much of that is hot air.
I thought where I am now was a really interesting, special place when I first came back, but I've filled it all with bad memories and constant reminders of things I've failed at. I am not sure it's for me anymore.
Should I move back to North Carolina when I can get my **** straightened out?
I'm literally not sure how to read any of this because I don't know what the significators would be for my current city and my old city, since where I am now is technically where I was born so I could consider either a hometown. Early ascendant moon has me feeling like it's tenuous to say the least.