Thank you greybeard and Dr. Farr for your insights and sharing your experiences. Also Wames that link was fun to read.
I do feel like the interpretations of retrograde planets seem simplistic or not quite correct in how they are viewed as inherently "bad" or "good" depending on the view... usually the "good" as a counter to all the "bad" interpretations.
I read that those with retrograde planets (Mercury, Venus, Mars) tend to "do better" during times that those planets are retrograde in transit. I believe this is true for me. I tend to feel at ease expressing myself during periods where others feel frustrated or set back. Almost like I am
relieved when things aren't working smoothly for others and they slow down. This also feeds into how Rx is working in a natal chart, I think... being "out of sync" with others in regards to that planet's condition, and having those temporary "corrections" helps.
My personal experience with my own chart (after living out most of a life) is that the Rx planets are in fact disruptive and impeding while at the same time providing the fodder for greater-than-normal expression of their energies in an often very positive way.
This rings with me. I feel like I'm forced to take a step back and look at what's going on, and that can be very positive. It also seems to drive a need for constant self-exploration, which can be harmful if it does not provide any value, but more often I think it does.
On subjectivity: It's very odd to me that society in general puts so much value on objectivity. We experience the world through the lens of our senses, feelings, motivations and prejudices. You can only find lies if you pretend to be objective. If you want to approximate "truth" you need to allow your own bias to be part of that truth, to accept it as as part of yourself and honor it. Otherwise, you cannot honor other's truth and experience (seems contradictory I know). I wonder if these views are reflecting having so many retrogrades. I'm curious how you, greybeard, and dr. farr see subjectivity itself considering your own retrograde planets.
I think this may be another pertinent comparison: With my chart, I should be interested in journalism. Strong Mercury in 3rd, Sun in 3rd, Gemini ASC, and some other indicators. However, I generally despise journalism right now because of these "no bias" attitudes despite heavy bias and how the industry is sewed up with private interests. I tried to work in journalism, but it was too "fast paced" in a chicken-with-its-head-cut-off kind of way that I found distasteful, especially with the egos that came along with it. I feel like if my Mercury and Mars weren't retrograde (in some imaginary birth chart) I would be right there along with them. But I cannot behave like that... I'm impeded by the way my mind works and how I carry out tasks.
In general, my tendency to check, recheck, analyze everything, go back and check again, make everything perfect (exacerbated by a Virgo Venus square Rx Saturn I'm sure) has blocked me from many activities that require speed... which is contradictory because of a Gemini ASC, where I appear quick and actually work well multi-tasking! This is part of being introverted... when I'm alone I can take as long as I want with others perceiving me as being fast because they don't see me work (Mars also in 8th Cap... hidden work). I'm so insecure about it that I usually pretend I didn't take so long.
I have all retrograde planets (except Moon) in the southern hemisphere. The outer world is definitely a source of discomfort.
Mercury turned direct in April 1999, the same month when my family got our first computer with an internet connection.
Mars turned direct during a summer college class in 2008 that changed all my aspirations of what I was going to do with my life; I actually decided to go for something without hesitating or second guessing myself. That class was a literal "awakening" after a huge low and loss of direction. Of course, Pluto sitting on my Mars right now is making me question all those decisions, but I'll push through.
ALSO: It took me over an hour to write this!