thank you, i agree,i had not been sure about Neptune conjunction with the sun, whether it was my best friend or worst enemy.Often I feel the answer is dangling before me , but i cant see it.
Neptune is shrouded in fog. We can't find Neptune's answers by looking straight at it.
Neptune is intuition, faith, spirituality, artistic aesthetics, music, symbolism, mysticism, meditation, prayer, divine consciousness.
It is transcendence and elevating beyond our basic senses to something more ethereal and sensitive.
Neptune can be our worst enemy because it can be trickery and fraud and deception. It can lead us to drinking and drugs and trying too black out in order to avoid the truth.
But she can also be our spiritual advisor, a transcendent force for spiritual awakening.
here is an interesting article about Sun conjunct Neptune:
I will post some here but it is longer if you click on the link there is more//
https://www.lookupthestars.com/post...contacts-you-can-t-heal-what-you-don-t-reveal
With Neptune in contact with the Sun, we have someone with a blurred self-concept, a difficulty knowing who the self is, difficulty evaluating, seeing, and therefore often loving - the self. The main energy here is - who am I? and often who am I if I'm not - insert cue depending on the Sun sign: In love, working, achieving, seen, validated.
As there is a tendency to not know the self, there are often difficulties having proper boundaries with others, which leads to enmeshment in relationships. Here we can have someone who loses themselves in their relationships, or have difficulties saying no, or even difficulties prioritizing their own needs; which can lead to self-abandonment / self-betrayal.
When we look at the source of why we have such struggles, Neptune - Sun often represents a parent (often the father); who wasn’t there or a who was physically present, but emotionally distant. This is a classic signature of the difficult aspects (square, opposition, conjunction, quincunx but also trine to some extent). One of the parent may have been someone deceiving, dishonest, and could have had issues with escapist behaviours.
Sometimes, the parent is there, and doesn't have any substance abuse, but is wildly stunted emotionally and doesn't have the capacity to make the child feel loved and seen.
By their absence and lack of relationship the parent makes the child unseen, unimportant, inexistent.
The consequence is this - The person is left without a key component of healthy ego construction, and grows up with a poor self-definition, which leads to classic consequences: Low self-esteem, seeking validation (the one which was never given or lost), low confidence, trouble seeing the self which can lead to unaccountability.
As there is a struggle to define the persona, sometimes what we see is someone who lets other people define the self, trying to understand who they are based on the feedback or comparison with other people. Here we have quite the shapeshifters, changing the self depending on the surroundings, depending on the entourage, on people’s expectations.
Neptune - Sun I have found, is someone with an incredible capacity to change and take accountability for themselves - especially so if there are more accountable energies in the chart but also when a difficult transit; for example of Saturn to the Sun, appears. Because there is a loose sense of self in the first place, the person is much more flexible, mutable, keen on changing and growing - elevating (Neptune) the self, to higher qualities.
Of course there is also a natural sense of empathy, and a capacity for kindness, forgiveness, and compassion - which are natural Neptunian qualities - but which often take a lot of time and pain to develop. Neptune represents losses, and often after several losses, tangible or more spiritual, the person reaches for these qualities.
Neptune - Sun is also capable of high ideals and, after the self is found, there can be a great capacity to be inspired and inspiring, as well as a strong inspiration to have an impact on the collective, not just the self. Neptune represents the collective, masses, and the person can feel compelled to leave an imprint on a collective.