I don't know how to exactly express what I am going through in life and why finding this out deeply saddens me but I will try to tell my story.
My first born son was born 12/14 last year. He's amazing little baby and so cute. I love him. His mom and I are not living together due to certain life circumstances and on top of that we cannot get along. I feel like I try but somehow it just goes left all the time.
I've been reading alot about Neptune in the 4th house and it worries me that I won't be a big part of my child's life because every time I read it I come across something that hits close to home. From my understanding Neptune in the 4th focuses on a parent-father figure being absent or not present in his life.
From: http://theastrologyplacemembership.com/2009/10/neptune-in-the-4th-house/
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In particular this quote above. I find a lot of similarities in this to a tee. I am trying to get a divorce with his mother. I'm artistic and have unfufilled dreams, and often times I feel that people see me as weak. Even though it's so early on his mother show signs of doing things like not caring or letting me FT with our baby when she is mad at me. She will literally show him to me on FT for less than a minute, tell me to hurry up, and just hang up on me. This is the pattern when she is upset with me. She doesn't take kind to any concerns I may have about him such as scratches on his face, skin rashes, hygiene, being lazy and feeding the baby on its back on the bed. It's a cluster-**** of things.
During the pandemic, I have not been able to see the baby in over a month because we are quarantine and even before all of this she will never welcome me into her place where she's staying so I can spend time with the baby, even though I have been there for her through everything and I provide everything for our baby (she hasn't worked in over a year and has no income). Usually I would see him on weekends at my mom's place and spend the day with him and now because of the pandemic I have not been able to see him which I understand, But to not let me FT with the baby and see his development is cruel.
I fear that Neptune in the fourth house will play out for my seed and I won't be a part of his life. It deeply sadden's me as a parent.
Can anyone help me interpret Neptune in the Fourth house fully and clearly?
I guess there is no specific point in this thread, I am venting as I am reading about Neptune in the 4th that has me in a very sad mood with everything I am going through.
My first born son was born 12/14 last year. He's amazing little baby and so cute. I love him. His mom and I are not living together due to certain life circumstances and on top of that we cannot get along. I feel like I try but somehow it just goes left all the time.
I've been reading alot about Neptune in the 4th house and it worries me that I won't be a big part of my child's life because every time I read it I come across something that hits close to home. From my understanding Neptune in the 4th focuses on a parent-father figure being absent or not present in his life.
From: http://theastrologyplacemembership.com/2009/10/neptune-in-the-4th-house/
The placement of the planet often shows where we want to feel a deeper emotional connection because maybe something here was lost. Sadly, it may be the father who is physically absent (since this house rules over this parent) through separation, divorce or death, and this position represents some form elusiveness and inaccessibility. There can also be a deep sadness surrounding him, and he may be unobtainable to them physically and/or psychologically. Usually, there is an unconscious over-idealization of this fatherly figure, and on some level, a solid relationship with him has been sacrificed.
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In particular this quote above. I find a lot of similarities in this to a tee. I am trying to get a divorce with his mother. I'm artistic and have unfufilled dreams, and often times I feel that people see me as weak. Even though it's so early on his mother show signs of doing things like not caring or letting me FT with our baby when she is mad at me. She will literally show him to me on FT for less than a minute, tell me to hurry up, and just hang up on me. This is the pattern when she is upset with me. She doesn't take kind to any concerns I may have about him such as scratches on his face, skin rashes, hygiene, being lazy and feeding the baby on its back on the bed. It's a cluster-**** of things.
During the pandemic, I have not been able to see the baby in over a month because we are quarantine and even before all of this she will never welcome me into her place where she's staying so I can spend time with the baby, even though I have been there for her through everything and I provide everything for our baby (she hasn't worked in over a year and has no income). Usually I would see him on weekends at my mom's place and spend the day with him and now because of the pandemic I have not been able to see him which I understand, But to not let me FT with the baby and see his development is cruel.
I fear that Neptune in the fourth house will play out for my seed and I won't be a part of his life. It deeply sadden's me as a parent.
Can anyone help me interpret Neptune in the Fourth house fully and clearly?
I guess there is no specific point in this thread, I am venting as I am reading about Neptune in the 4th that has me in a very sad mood with everything I am going through.
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