midnight sun
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Hi, I would like to write about the problems I live about taking action and the effects of Mars-Neptune aspects on it.
My both natal Sun and Mars in 9th house are in opposition to Neptune in 3rd house.
I got over some of the problems it created. After 30 years, I accepted, finally, I am a creative person with a high imagination. I started to believe in myself. And I could be able to reach the end of my phd thesis despite lots of resistance and pain I feel.
Now the real problem is I can't activate my Mars and take action. Everything happens in my head. I make lots of plans, ideas, solutions in my head ( I even paint, or write a story, create songs) but I just can't get them real, take action about them or make them tangible in life. Any action attempt hits a big resistance wall inside me.
It feels like, my brain works faster and solves and finishes everything but when it is time to do it in real life with my body, I feel too impatient, nervous and easily bored. And I leave most of things half done. I started a dozen of things in the past but most of them are half done.
I am very depressed about this situation. I feel like there is a little child inside me who wants to have everything and do everything easily without working. I always escape when there is a work to do. Unfortunately, I realize that our result focused working style isn't helping at all, it makes this problem worser(and also the fastness of social media).
It is also hard to move my body. Sometimes I don't even want to move or go out of bed. After 3 years, I am bored with my job, too. But I was thinking I was created for it(being a research assistant). There is strange thing inside me that the thing I want to do changes a lot Again I feel like a child who wants to be everything; the painter, the musician, the dancer, the writer....but I can't learn and be everything. I don't know why but I always want change in my life after a while..
How can I heal this aspect and activate my Mars? How can this opposition be balanced?
My both natal Sun and Mars in 9th house are in opposition to Neptune in 3rd house.
I got over some of the problems it created. After 30 years, I accepted, finally, I am a creative person with a high imagination. I started to believe in myself. And I could be able to reach the end of my phd thesis despite lots of resistance and pain I feel.
Now the real problem is I can't activate my Mars and take action. Everything happens in my head. I make lots of plans, ideas, solutions in my head ( I even paint, or write a story, create songs) but I just can't get them real, take action about them or make them tangible in life. Any action attempt hits a big resistance wall inside me.
It feels like, my brain works faster and solves and finishes everything but when it is time to do it in real life with my body, I feel too impatient, nervous and easily bored. And I leave most of things half done. I started a dozen of things in the past but most of them are half done.
I am very depressed about this situation. I feel like there is a little child inside me who wants to have everything and do everything easily without working. I always escape when there is a work to do. Unfortunately, I realize that our result focused working style isn't helping at all, it makes this problem worser(and also the fastness of social media).
It is also hard to move my body. Sometimes I don't even want to move or go out of bed. After 3 years, I am bored with my job, too. But I was thinking I was created for it(being a research assistant). There is strange thing inside me that the thing I want to do changes a lot Again I feel like a child who wants to be everything; the painter, the musician, the dancer, the writer....but I can't learn and be everything. I don't know why but I always want change in my life after a while..
How can I heal this aspect and activate my Mars? How can this opposition be balanced?