normak
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Well, my divorce has just been finalized; I have maintained contact with my ex-husband through the entire process, although our relationship is more like me=therapist and him=patient at this point. He was emotionally (and occasionally physically) abusive through our relationship, although I had a tendency to yell at him a lot, so I guess I was emotionally abusive as well. However, it wasn't until very recently, when I started speaking more regularly with a counselor and had my psychiatric meds finally sorted out, that I realized that I have lost all respect for him. I still feel as if he's someone I care about, like a family member, but I find myself disgusted with him; completely disillusioned. I have attached our synastry chart and have noticed that our key inter-planetary contacts were mostly negative and our relationship was largely unequal, so I can't understand why I stayed with him for 4 years and then married him for 2. What was the attraction? I notice our axes line up nicely, and we have a lot of Mercury contacts, but no Venus-Mars contacts, mutual Sun, Moon, and Venus contacts are mostly negative (Sun sq. Sun, Sun opp. Mars), negative Saturn contacts, negative Ascendant contacts and no particular house emphasis in the chart that would indicate a romantic relationship. I could see us being casual friends/acquaintances, but nothing that shows that I would be DISGUSTED with him or have no respect for him. Thoughts?
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