xyclomatic
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Throughout my entire life, nobody in my family ever took me seriously. It's like every word I say tends to pass through their brain and gets unprocessed. Of course I've noticed this phenomenon repeatedly occuring even as early back as a kid, and it still happens to a lesser extent as a young adult. Therefore that "energy" is still very much present today. It bothers me so much.
Btw, this happens ONLY with family members. In fact, people outside my family do actively listen when I talk to them, but not my family since it always feels like I'm outright ignored, neglected, and left in the ditch by them. It doesn't help that I so happen to be the youngest in the family as well, therefore I can see why they don't take me seriously even if the things I say can be important. It's sad, but the only time they'll listen to me is if I were to scream and shout to the top of my lungs. I feel like that's the only way, but obviously I'm not that insane unless I have to. On a regular day, however, any means of meaningful communication with them had been proven to be difficult.
Now, if it already doesn't sound bad enough, they're also extremely critical of me for every little thing I do. I remember getting verbally abused by my older siblings when I was a kid - especially the things from the way I look, eat, speak, move my arms, etc... you know, all the small but trivial stuff. They criticize me for literally EVERYTHING. Also, when there's an argument and they realize that I'm right, they could never admit to it despite the solid proof/evidence that I've shown them. They would continue to point the blame at me even when I'm 100% innocent. So yeah, you could obviously tell that my childhood wasn't too great. I've dealt with so much verbal abuse from my family (especially older siblings) that it still left me with emotional scars today. Idk... at this point I could even kill myself and they probably wouldn't care, either. It's sad, really.
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Btw, this happens ONLY with family members. In fact, people outside my family do actively listen when I talk to them, but not my family since it always feels like I'm outright ignored, neglected, and left in the ditch by them. It doesn't help that I so happen to be the youngest in the family as well, therefore I can see why they don't take me seriously even if the things I say can be important. It's sad, but the only time they'll listen to me is if I were to scream and shout to the top of my lungs. I feel like that's the only way, but obviously I'm not that insane unless I have to. On a regular day, however, any means of meaningful communication with them had been proven to be difficult.
Now, if it already doesn't sound bad enough, they're also extremely critical of me for every little thing I do. I remember getting verbally abused by my older siblings when I was a kid - especially the things from the way I look, eat, speak, move my arms, etc... you know, all the small but trivial stuff. They criticize me for literally EVERYTHING. Also, when there's an argument and they realize that I'm right, they could never admit to it despite the solid proof/evidence that I've shown them. They would continue to point the blame at me even when I'm 100% innocent. So yeah, you could obviously tell that my childhood wasn't too great. I've dealt with so much verbal abuse from my family (especially older siblings) that it still left me with emotional scars today. Idk... at this point I could even kill myself and they probably wouldn't care, either. It's sad, really.
Here's my natal chart:
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