Hi everyone, I'd love to get some objective insight from you on my chart.
I've been studying it for years and have almost gone nuts trying to figure out what is the main challenging theme in my life that I should address to finally become "unstuck" and move forward in the right direction (or any direction for that matter) without circling back to where I started.
jup-sat opp misjudgments-missed opportunities in life; sun-sat opp great stress in health-relationships-career;
sat now 2.5yr transit natal sat cap opp jup-sun; sat 5th seeking change but stuck, negating employment opportunities;
I'm a 28-year-old female, currently depressed and hiding out in my parents' house without any job, money, emotional support, specified education or a plan for the future.
ketu separative SNode hyper individualistic-proud leo detachment from income-gains-friendships-relationship;
1.5yr transit ketu over natal rahu NNode acq 5th, detachment from/negating luck-edu-romance-children-position, life style reversals;
As a Gemini dominant I've had gazillion of dreams and visions for myself but absolutely zero follow through after the initial excitement would wear off. There were times when I thought I was on the right path of overcoming my personal issues and finding my life purpose but I never really figured out what it is exactly because sooner or later I'd always get stuck and disencouraged with taking any further steps.
virgo asc perfectionist, critical thinking good for audit-quality control type roles, self and health conscious;
asc lord mer over gemini with moon, good at compiling information, but confused at decision making roles;
good for business analyst/business information, instrumental music, psychometrics;
previous 2.5yrs sat transit sag opp moon-mer gemini, home-career-mother-health under emotional stress;
Actually I feel like I never even got any close to doing what I'm supposed to be doing in this lifetime. But most importantly, I don't know what it is that blocks me from taking action every single time and sticking to it until I find my answers.
ketu leo, jup-sat opp, moon-mer gemini; mentioned above;
mars lord 9th for luck-father negating to 8th, negating luck-father's support; mars own aries 8th success amidst adversity,
able to cope with tough challenges; while hyper-impulsive and accident prone and chronic urological inflammations-piles etc
;
I'm not looking for an advice on what would be the ideal vocation or life direction for me.
jup cancer 11th gains from teaching-advisory-consultancy roles, and gains from spouse-business partners/business;
sat own cap aptitude for public admin/school admin, event management etc,
but stuck with misjudgments and missed opportunities probably, jup-sat opp;
venus own taurus 9th, love of food-comforts, hotel management, pharmacy, university teaching, arts, etc etc
mars aspect own scorpio supportive of research-occult-investigative aptitudes;
in case some of these talents and their integration lead to self-discovery and self-fulfillment
I'm looking for an insight on what keeps holding me back from getting out there and trying to figure it out in the first place.
What is the main challenge or issue that you see in my chart that could be the cause of my constant idleness, discouragement and feeling stuck?