Abby83
Well-known member
I have to confess/confide what happened to me.
Last week a man took advantage of me (sexually). At the time I felt sick and I still do. But I feel like I needed this to happen. I didn’t realise how deluded I was about sex and my fantasies. My 5th cusp is Pisces, and I find myself often in the trap of deluding myself and giving and sacrificing so much that ppl take advantage of me. Problem is, I am naturally so confident with sex and my body and men, that I have never felt the need to put up boundaries around men. I’m naturally very open and warm (5th ruler Neptune and Jupiter in Sagittarius in 1st and 2nd). So now, after what has happened, I feel like this was a needed reality check. It showed me what it’s really like. The man is a Saturn in Capricorn in his 1st house in my horaries. I believe he was another cold, control freak narcissist. I definitely attract these types due to my personality. I’m a magnet for them. He was a very warm, gentle, sweet, shy client of mine who I saw for a month with no problems. Then the last time he came to see me his eyes went black and he was a different person. Scary stuff. Now I’m trying really hard to keep my boundaries up with my clients. They all keep telling me they love my warm bubbly easy going personality but they tend to get the wrong idea about it. So whilst I’ll do my best to be firm, I still want to be true to myself, which will be a challenge.
Last week a man took advantage of me (sexually). At the time I felt sick and I still do. But I feel like I needed this to happen. I didn’t realise how deluded I was about sex and my fantasies. My 5th cusp is Pisces, and I find myself often in the trap of deluding myself and giving and sacrificing so much that ppl take advantage of me. Problem is, I am naturally so confident with sex and my body and men, that I have never felt the need to put up boundaries around men. I’m naturally very open and warm (5th ruler Neptune and Jupiter in Sagittarius in 1st and 2nd). So now, after what has happened, I feel like this was a needed reality check. It showed me what it’s really like. The man is a Saturn in Capricorn in his 1st house in my horaries. I believe he was another cold, control freak narcissist. I definitely attract these types due to my personality. I’m a magnet for them. He was a very warm, gentle, sweet, shy client of mine who I saw for a month with no problems. Then the last time he came to see me his eyes went black and he was a different person. Scary stuff. Now I’m trying really hard to keep my boundaries up with my clients. They all keep telling me they love my warm bubbly easy going personality but they tend to get the wrong idea about it. So whilst I’ll do my best to be firm, I still want to be true to myself, which will be a challenge.