You are insecure about your public image and your ability to achieve success through your own efforts. As a result, you try one of two things. The first is you could attempt to take shortcuts with get-rich-quick schemes, register for gimmick-y courses, or follow the lessons of motivational speakers who are in reality - just hacks. The second path is that you might try is to endear yourself to others by using your personal style, attractiveness, charm, or persuasion to gain the approval of others, or seek out social influence (social climbing) to do the dirty work for you. Until you learn to believe in yourself and your ability to achieve your goals through your own efforts and your own means, you will continue to try and take shortcuts. Once you stop complaining and learn how to be responsible, you will find your path forward.