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I feel as if I am being punished and that things just never go right and something always gets in the way of me accomplishing my goals and desires.
Virgo rising is prone to being a scapegoat - punished unfairly. Virgo can be extremely self-critical and self-doubting and even guilty. The remedy for this is to do positive Virgo - analyze yourself and others to deeply understand them. Turn the criticism to analysis for understanding.
Your South Node is in Libra, 2nd house. To me, it implies that you rely on other people for your self-concept or self-worth - or getting positive feedback from them to feel recognized as accomplished. Chiron suggests that you THINK or PERCEIVE of your social / career self in a way that is a problem. Virgo rising can contribute to great self-doubt and self-criticism. It can literally make us think we're a piece of **** when other people don't see us that way at all.
All those planets in the lower part of the chart suggest you're here to develop yourself - to work on the inner you more than the outer you. Your accomplishments are likely to be of a private nature. Not everyone is here to make great contributions to the world. Some of us are here to develop ourselves and be better people. Better people make a better world.
This is a very inward chart. It'd be great to write - journal - a little bit of the ways you've grown internally which aren't social or career accomplishments, but personal ones. Give yourself some recognition. Your Aries North Node in 8th house is about the courage to explore yourself deeply. You will do that through personal one-on-one relationships. Your accomplishments may go unnoticed there too, but you will know.
With all that Capricorn added to the Virgo earth - there is a greater chance you are prone to depression. You might feel quite alone in your own private space. Somehow, you need to make peace with your solitude. It's quite possible that you can. Down deep, I think you don't mind being alone except when you think about wanting to be more social. When you are social, try practicing being authentic - like how you feel when you're alone. You might put on a happy face and then no one gets to know you.
You're developing a true sense of self, integrity, living from the inside out - being authentic. You tend to keep a stiff upper lip and not express yourself - so - there's that too. But, you can work on that.
I don't know if you drink or do drugs, but you might be prone to it. If you are doing that, please get some help for it. This will not help you.
Other than that, just know that inner work, personal growth work - isn't very supported in our culture. We don't place value on it - especially if you are a man. Men are told they have to earn lots of money and have a successful career. Well, that's not for everybody. And yet, some of us are here to do the inner work and not the outer stuff our culture supports. You have to give yourself kudos and find like-minded people to befriend who are also doing inner work.
Anyway, that's my two cents.