Hi everyone! I was really impressed with the great interpretations for Aquarian Maverick and Happyraccoon tonight (who has captured my heart, by the way) and figured I might fess up to a personal struggle that's got me totally murked with angst and turmoil and ask for the help I really need regarding my current partnership.
I think the fundamental issues come down to my inability to discern between lessons involved with recent transits, our personal karmic energies, and what I need to be doing (compared to what I "think" I need to be doing). This relationship has a strong venus opposition neptune aspect to it, which makes me think we're going for low love as opposed to the real deal, but its so tricky its got me flubbed. The neptune here feels slightly "dirty," and we've had some pluto/mars power struggles that have set off red-alarms for me, but I sense a lot of the lessons we each need are embedded within one another like a paradox, which is why I stay and try to figure out what is REALLY going on here..
He' s had hard times before me and has a general overtone of depression, cynicism and resistance to change; some hard mars saturn pluto aspects. I've had hard times too, but my hard times have resulted in a harsh and frantic but fun vibration, hard pluto and uranus aspects. If I had to make up some sabian-like imagery for the state of our souls, I would say perfect imagery for our individual vibrations would be me: scared trees shaking with an intense nightime thunderstorm, disturbed but knowing the storm will clear soon, while he: is a murky swamp with a beautiful ethereal mist that rises daily at dawn. We're night and day.
We have spiritual principles in common and transformative sex which feels like enough of a spiritual life preserver to keep us afloat, but something is missing. I can't determine if I am simply incompatable with his scorpio moon, or if this is a transformative/emotionally expansive "dark" relationship with a higher purpose, or are we just fooling ourselves, wasting time, and dwindling away our purpose?? Neither of us can make heads or tails of why we are together, other than the vague idea that we love each other combined with the fact of complacency that we are already here and now have material resources in common. The confusion and depression is increasingly affecting me and I don't know the first thing about synastry charts. I've cried all day because attempts at understanding seem so futile. Please, can anyone help?
Thanks and Love,
Sita
I think the fundamental issues come down to my inability to discern between lessons involved with recent transits, our personal karmic energies, and what I need to be doing (compared to what I "think" I need to be doing). This relationship has a strong venus opposition neptune aspect to it, which makes me think we're going for low love as opposed to the real deal, but its so tricky its got me flubbed. The neptune here feels slightly "dirty," and we've had some pluto/mars power struggles that have set off red-alarms for me, but I sense a lot of the lessons we each need are embedded within one another like a paradox, which is why I stay and try to figure out what is REALLY going on here..
He' s had hard times before me and has a general overtone of depression, cynicism and resistance to change; some hard mars saturn pluto aspects. I've had hard times too, but my hard times have resulted in a harsh and frantic but fun vibration, hard pluto and uranus aspects. If I had to make up some sabian-like imagery for the state of our souls, I would say perfect imagery for our individual vibrations would be me: scared trees shaking with an intense nightime thunderstorm, disturbed but knowing the storm will clear soon, while he: is a murky swamp with a beautiful ethereal mist that rises daily at dawn. We're night and day.
We have spiritual principles in common and transformative sex which feels like enough of a spiritual life preserver to keep us afloat, but something is missing. I can't determine if I am simply incompatable with his scorpio moon, or if this is a transformative/emotionally expansive "dark" relationship with a higher purpose, or are we just fooling ourselves, wasting time, and dwindling away our purpose?? Neither of us can make heads or tails of why we are together, other than the vague idea that we love each other combined with the fact of complacency that we are already here and now have material resources in common. The confusion and depression is increasingly affecting me and I don't know the first thing about synastry charts. I've cried all day because attempts at understanding seem so futile. Please, can anyone help?
Thanks and Love,
Sita
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