I am a little confused on the transits occuring end of April and Sept/Oct...does that mean it's a good time to have surgery or a bad time?
Here's the thing, in April there is the Mars-Saturn opposition going on, it'll take place in your 6th and 12th houses (which rule health and hospitals). I think this period shows a planetary configuration that "speaks" of surgery, a tendency, so it's possible that your doctors will offer to perform surgery in this period, but by no means I'm telling you that you are forced to pick this period to do it, or that it will be inevitable that you undergo surgery. It's a tendency, and maybe Mars will express itself differently, let's wait and see.
It seems to me that surgery is not a certainty at this point for you. Is it? If surgery is in the cards, we can try and pick a day or period in which Moon, Venus, Jupiter are well placed for you. I feel kinda out of my depth doing this, cos I'm not really experienced in electional astrology, it's a great responsibility, but we must try everything! So, if surgery is really deemed necessary, I hope other astrologers here will help us choose an auspicious time.
I realize recovery would be better in Oct. so should I put it off?
Nope, not really. Here's what I mean:
There were three critical periods in this year in your journey against this disease, the three perfections of the square between transiting Saturn and your natal Moon. these peaks, or perfections, are the moments of greatest tension between Saturn and your natal Moon, so they are the most difficult periods for you.
I originally mentioned two perfections, but I was wrong, there were three peaks, and two of them are already gone - phew! One of them was around New Year, when Saturn reached 16 degrees in Libra for the first time, and impacted your Moon. That was perhaps one of the lowest periods for you. Then Saturn advanced, but very soon it went retrograde, so it impacted your moon for the second time in late february - february 21st to be more precise. That's around the time when you received the bad news of the catscan and the growth of the disease, that was the second Saturn hit.
So, now what happens? Saturn is retrograde and backing off from the 16th degree for a considerable while, so the square will lose its strength and therefore you will have a respite in the next months. Things will get less stressful than they are now for you, so, this is why I say you must use the next months of respite to get ready for the last hit of the square, which will take place in september, around september 12th. That will be the last "attack", so, what I mean when I give you this date is, get ready, do all you can to go through September with all the strength you can gather, cos once you beat that, then there will be no other squares between Moon and Saturn, the worse period will be over after september.
It's as if I came to you and said, "your enemy plans an attack for september". Then you must get ready, do all you can to be prepared and not get caught unguarded, weakened, hesitant, unsure. Arm yourself, spiritually, physically, for the last hit in september. After that, no more squares, and Saturn will trine your Sun, so, there is a great energy for recovery.
I also see a full moon the week of April 18th in my first house, is that dangerous for surgery?
I'm not sure since I'm not versed in moon phases and their impact on one's chart. In general I look for Venus, Moon, Jupiter trines to the afflicted planet (in this case, the Moon), in order to provide it with good outlets for the intensity of such a procedure. Tell me if surgery is a certainty or not at this point, so that we can study the transits and look for a good time.
Then, when I was diagnosed I didn't want to run back to God just because I was dying.
Hey, my friend, there is no such thing as a wrong time to run back to God.
Actually most religious/spiritual people I know turned to God precisely in difficult times.
I totally understand your reasons and timing, so why God wouldn't? I don't believe either in that vengeful God that people try to impose to us. I believe in God as love.
I loved the story about your grandmother! Everytime I hear a contradiction concerning conventional medicine it gives me renewed faith that I just might beat this!
Hey, never doubt this! I for one believe that attitude is decisive. I believe that our mindset and general disposition can work real miracles. Don't let doctors get you down, some are so jaded by years dealing with diseases that they forget to see an unique human being behind their diagnosis and statistics. I don't mean to throw all doctors in the same bag, but I've seen real dismal attitudes from doctors in my life...