This is for katydid!! Unfortunately I found out the messages didn't go through
Sorry I've been very very busy with school and work. And I've been so exhausted.
My Leo woman.... boy what a trek did she take me on. What did she not do my dear Katy.
Well she strung so many lies... lies that taint me till this day. And I'm happy I'm over her because I've learned so many lessons. So many many lessons. Lessons that were critical and crucial to me development into adulthood and becoming a stable man in the real world.
I appreciate what I went through because when I first met her I didn't love myself. All my confidence was fake, I was very emotionally immature. My attention and direction in life was towards things that didn't contribute to the well being and foundations of my future.
My Leo woman she lied...
Lied to me about why she could leave the sagg telling me she was forced to be with him and that she's trying to find a way to leave him. After almost a year I was fed up. I met her in August of 2014.
In June of 2015, I fought with her and she disappeared. She then disappeared for 10 months, lied to me that if I came by her home that the same group of people that forced her to be with the saggitarius will also harm her family. Meaning I had to stay away.
My intuition was telling me she was lying and whoever that was texting me on the cell phone line was actually her. There was no need for lies and immature games. But that's not where it stopped. When she first disappears and faked her coma, whoever she was playing as also said she had a miscarriage due to the trauma.
This has a profound affect on me, it was like psychological warfare. I fell into depression and from there I went into thoughts of committing suicide over the later course of the 10 months. She exactly knew how bad I wanted kids, hell she'd cry when I'd speak of kids and a future. For me to have been the fault and cause of the miscarriage of my baby was something I didn't take lightly. I failed my semesters at school and I lost my job.
One day in march of 2016 I took a stroll by her house at night, fed up of dead end conversations with everyone on the line...
I look up at her window. The lights were ON. And guess who I see texting me? Her. Texting me.... AS SOMEONE ELSE.
That night, a part of me died permanently. A loss of innocence was felt, I trusted no one like I trusted her. I loved no one like I loved her. She faked her coma, told me she had miscarriage. But for what.
I proceeded to knock on her door, her daughter opened up the door, confused like wtf am I doing here. It took her a while a come down from her room. Her ex husband parked his car was very hostile towards me. Looking at me with an attitude and asked me to stand out on the street. Which I did, and she came out.
She didn't even apologize, and she comes out rather angry. Pissed off. Didn't even give a **** about what I went through. We sat in my car and spoke. I told her in tears I said look, if you don't wanna be with me then say so. But don't play games don't play with my heart, she said she didn't play games she did everything she could to protect me from the group that has been controlling her life since she was 5 years old.
I looked her in the eyes and said "what do you want? This is no longer in my hands, what do you want?"
She said
"I want you and I want the future I'm fighting for the marriage and children."
I said ok fine but I gotta go home now. Said our goodbye but she said I still cannot come by her home. I was confused but she mentions the group that controls her life again. This was March 29th, 2016.
For the next few weeks we'd meet up and go on dates; at night we'd **** in the back of my suburban. It was like the good ol times but not really, her lies she'd tell me made me very uncomfortable. My intuition was telling me something is wrong.
Fast forward to May, I got in a fight on day over the phone with her. And she wouldn't pick up so I drove by her house this was at night. Her brother was fixing his car next to her little kid and he was looking at me with an attitude. Again, very hostile. I was confused and he then says "what are you doing here, I said I'm here to talk to P he's like "your not supposed to be here. She said she doesn't wanna hear from you ever again and see you, nor does she wanna talk to you.
Go away." He's like "your a stalker and a creep. We gotta keep the doors locked at all times at night because of you."
(I ended up finding out much much later on that the day I saw her at her house, she ended up telling everyone that I was crazy and psychotic and that she didn't wanna have anything to do with me. All in all while seeing me on the side and ******* me and telling me we were to have a future and ****.)
I was still confused.... because two days before she was still swearing to that the coma thing was true. So I drove off and this was the 2nd time my intuition was telling me something is wrong.
Now when she first disappeared I messaged a friend of hers asking her about my Leo's coma status over facebook, she never got back to me till late June. I apologized to her for bothering her and I'm taking my leave and that I'll never see my Leo again. she apologized for the situation herself that I'm a nice and wonderful guy and that she wishes me the best in my life. This friend knew me and she knew I was a kind young man. Also I think her brother was in the airforce as she knew I was gonna go into the service.
Her name is S, I told S that night that my Leo is still seeing me and ******* and ****. She was shocked, S was the one that told me that my Leo said she didn't wanna see me or talk to me ever again that I'm psychotic and ****. This was said to me in August 2016.
The entire month of August I was fighting with my Leo, and I ended up going on a crazy rampage of sending my Leo's brothers three of her brothers her ex-husband the Sagittarius and even the Sagittarius's sisters and friend Messages I mean I went ******* man and crazy. I sent out her nude photos I sent of the proof that she was talking to me I sent out everything.
In September 2016 I see an usual car parked by her house... an old *** dirty beat up two door Jeep and I end up finding out that it was his because he approached me and he said some horrible things to me.
He comes up to me and says you're a ******* rapist you're an extortionist and you're a coward and he just repeated that to my face.
I said well I'm not here to get called on for whatever she's told you I'm here to show you proof that she cheated on you with me I have the proof. I said let's shake hands with us just get this over with because I'm moving on with my life and he wouldn't buy it. So I got in my car and I drove away for good and I didn't speak to her for a good two days she ended up calling me and she spoke to me in a very neutral tone, we met up and she told me a few more lines but I knew at this point she was lying.
Now continue her lies from September to October to November and then in December she told me that she broke up with the Sagittarius that she was concentrating on a future with me again. Katie I did not budge I didn't buy her ******** I didn't get my hopes up because I knew she was lying and the night after Christmas guess who's car I saw parked?? Mr. burrito Sagittarius!
I waited for 2 1/2 hours it was cold it was dark and he comes out he tries to mimic that he's going inside his vehicle he doesn't he walks all the way down interest to come around my car and as he text his phone I go to speak to him. At this point he's more hostile than I am and I said listen this is my last time going to do this I want to speak to you I want to talk to you like normal human being no lies no nothing I'm here to show proof.
He proceeds to jump me he gives me a sucker punch which is a punch that comes out of nowhere. I took the hit I did not fall he continues to punch me I would never punch back, because I didn't meet him to fight with him I simply wanted to talk to him, like a normal human being. As I'm backing out and away from him he proceeds to kick me right in the private area and I still didn't go down because I stood my ground. I right away hopped in my car and as I turn on the ignition key he just came up and tried to open up the door. Before I got out of my car I made a smart move I locked my doors from all sides, except the driver door. So when I got into my car, I only had to lock my driver door. You may ask yourself why the **** did I even go by her house well it's because she told me that she was going to be at home working on a business deal so we can have enough funding for her company to move out of California something like that basically she said she was trying to fight for our "future".
And that was my Christmas gift to me I hadn't seen my Leo woman face to face in person since November. And I didn't get to see her until January 2017 to which she brings up this anonymous ******** story about the group again.
This was when I started blogging online trying to figure out what the **** is going on with her transits why she's lying to me what's the whole point of it because there really was no point for her to play me like the way she did she is 41 years old act like a ******* teenager and the Sagittarius is like in his mid late 30s and he also asked like a teenager.
Katie the hardest part about this was I had nobody to talk to and I couldn't tell my family members it was very embarrassing it was that most embarrassing to me. Imagine telling your friend that your girlfriend or whatever the **** you with considers you a stocker in a creep to the eyes of her family and then the man that she was with calls you a rapist in the next ocean i imagine telling your friend that your girlfriend or whatever the **** you with considers you a stocker in a creep to the eyes of her family and then the man that she was with calls you a rapist and extortionist.
I had no form whatsoever of pride or ego or self-confidence left within me like the humanity within me was completely bleached white I was ******* done you know.
In February I wanted to do something for Valentine's Day she ended up ditching me for like two weeks and then almost the entire month of March she was also disappeared until late April she didn't even call me for my birthday which was on April 16.
But on April 16 I feel like God gave me something I could've use the longest time ago which was the strings to get over her I no longer felt anxious to go by her house and no longer felt the impulsiveness that clogged my mind and I don't longer felt the need for attachment to this demon that I was so called in love with. Today is march 5, ever since that day I've been sleeping and eating and drinking and going on with my life like a normal human being without her.
I'm happy that I went through what I went through, I learned many lessons I wouldn't have learned without going through my experiences.
I learned to love myself and respect myself before others and to put myself before others as a 21 year old male in this world. I learned to listen to myself and my intuition because my intuition knew all along but my delusions kept getting in my way. The damaged that was cause to me was due to my own stupidity, and I have healed from those wounds. But I am a much stronger man, with broader shoulders able carry much much more weight than I did when I first met this.... demon. I was naive once upon a time.... no more.
