I don't know what to do anymore

Selina

Selina

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Hello everyone

I am in one of the worst times of my life, where I just cannot get successful no matter what I do... I'm in a big pain ever since June '18, where my efforts were not acknowledged by my professors and my graduation extended because of this. I was really depressed and somehow pushed myself to be motivated again

I've been applying for internships and always making it to the last step and get rejected

I know that im capable of doing all of these and the fact that nobody can see it hurt me to the most. im really so depressed and I feel like I might even have a heart attack soon. im just so tired and exhausted.

somehow all my life I had to do more than others even just to get something little.

im a really passionate person and when I don't get successful I get hurt very deeply

and now lately I and my family are going through a bad time financially and theres nowhere to escape

i have a long and very difficult year for me ahead and I feel trapped and I don't know what to do anymore. im still motivated but its just too much for me, I cannot express it really you have to go through it to get what I mean

my father has never supported me financially or emotionally either. always going through family problems.

I DO KNOW THAT IM CAPABLE OF DOIGN ANYTHING IM JUST SO FED UP

Please, PLEASE, help me, tell me what to do in order to keep my mental health ok and me motivated. I just feel so lost.

Transit Saturn is sq my moon and opposite my Venus. I know Saturn is testing me. But I just don't know how come I'm always so unlucky and going through problems and how come my efforts are not seen.

WHEN WILL I BECOME SUCCESSFUL THE WAY I WANT TO BE???????
 

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kshantaram

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in case helps pick clues, validate with feedbacks how true-false-helpful,
talents-traits-health-events-prospects etc etc :


sat now 2.5yrs transit own cap 4th opp sun,
career-home-mother-property-health under much stress;
sat lord 6th for health and challenges; natal sat pisces 7th
affecting abdominal health, relationship; delayed marriage;

sat moves to cap 5th further, seeking change, but stuck,
negating employment prospects;
natal sat over pisces 7th inimical for virgo asc,
stress-delays in relationship-marriage-vocation;

sat-mars opp relationships-health etc under stress-struggle,
while may have entrepreneurial attitude;
mars lord 8th over virgo asc,
critical thinking-attitude, accident prone, head-intestinal-hip injury;

observe fast sat evenings, taking milk-fruits; avoid evening meal;

sat better enter own acq 6th for health-employment 3 yrs later;
acq 6th preference for tech-legal-innovative-reformist work environments;


jup now transit scorpio 3rd for research-occult-advisory roles,
trine own pisces-sat 7th for relationship-vocation;
trine sun cancer 10th supportive of career;

year-end jup moves to natal jup sag 3rd,
good for advisory-counseling roles;
prayers to saint of faith, offer yellow flowers thurs mornings;
wear yellow sapphire over pendant touching heart;

jup sag aspects asc lord mer own gemini 10th, growth-riches
through intellectual pursuits, writings, communications, information processing;
wear emerald over little finger enhance career;


moon lord 11th for gains over first libra,
aptitude for psychology-sociology-public relations-human relations;
sun-mer-venus 10th, literary-oratory aptitudes, govt role, managerial aptitudes;
sun cancer sensitive; sun lord 12th over 10th career under stress
and tending to foreign assignments perhaps;
natal-transit jup sag trine aspect leo 12th for foreign lands;
moon libra wavery, wear pearl over silver pendant touching heart;

venus 2nd lord for family-finances zero deg cancer and weak,
aptitude for charismatic leadership and arts,
wear 0.25 carat diamond over platinum pendant touching heart;
sat transit cap opp venus craving for affection but difficult to manifest;


rahu NNode debilated dark pit scorpio 2nd for family-finances;
research-occult inclinations, foreign earnings;
not to indulge excessively into the occult;
wear brown hessonite over pendant;

rahu now transit leo 12th for foreign lands-travels;


ketu SNode taurus 7th, extra stubborn;
pain-injury-surgery abdominals, throat-thyroid-dental;

ketu now 1.5yr transit acq 6th, accident prone, job separations;
pain-injury-surgery intestinal-lower legs-sciatica etc to care;
prayers to Christ, offer red flowers fri evenings at alter at home.



challenging transits of sat-ketu, hope jup transit scorpio-sag helps,


wishing well, kshantaram
 
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Selina

Selina

Active member
kshantaram said:
in case helps pick clues, validate with feedbacks how true-false-helpful,
talents-traits-health-events-prospects etc etc :


sat now 2.5yrs transit own cap 4th opp sun,
career-home-mother-property-health under much stress;
sat lord 6th for health and challenges; natal sat pisces 7th
affecting abdominal health, relationship; delayed marriage;

sat moves to cap 5th further, seeking change, but stuck,
negating employment prospects;
natal sat over pisces 7th inimical for virgo asc,
stress-delays in relationship-marriage-vocation;

sat-mars opp relationships-health etc under stress-struggle,
while may have entrepreneurial attitude;
mars lord 8th over virgo asc,
critical thinking-attitude, accident prone, head-intestinal-hip injury;

observe fast sat evenings, taking milk-fruits; avoid evening meal;

sat better enter own acq 6th for health-employment 3 yrs later;
acq 6th preference for tech-legal-innovative-reformist work environments;


jup now transit scorpio 3rd for research-occult-advisory roles,
trine own pisces-sat 7th for relationship-vocation;
trine sun cancer 10th supportive of career;

year-end jup moves to natal jup sag 3rd,
good for advisory-counseling roles;
prayers to saint of faith, offer yellow flowers thurs mornings;
wear yellow sapphire over pendant touching heart;

jup sag aspects asc lord mer own gemini 10th, growth-riches
through intellectual pursuits, writings, communications, information processing;
wear emerald over little finger enhance career;


moon lord 11th for gains over first libra,
aptitude for psychology-sociology-public relations-human relations;
sun-mer-venus 10th, literary-oratory aptitudes, govt role, managerial aptitudes;
sun cancer sensitive; sun lord 12th over 10th career under stress
and tending to foreign assignments perhaps;
natal-transit jup sag trine aspect leo 12th for foreign lands;
moon libra wavery, wear pearl over silver pendant touching heart;

venus 2nd lord for family-finances zero deg cancer and weak,
aptitude for charismatic leadership and arts,
wear 0.25 carat diamond over platinum pendant touching heart;
sat transit cap opp venus craving for affection but difficult to manifest;


rahu NNode debilated dark pit scorpio 2nd for family-finances;
research-occult inclinations, foreign earnings;
not to indulge excessively into the occult;
wear brown hessonite over pendant;

rahu now transit leo 12th for foreign lands-travels;


ketu SNode taurus 7th, extra stubborn;
pain-injury-surgery abdominals, throat-thyroid-dental;

ketu now transit acq 6th, accident prone, job separations;
pain-injury-surgery intestinal-lower legs-sciatica etc to care;
prayers to Christ, offer red flowers fri evenings at alter at home.



challenging transits of sat-ketu, hope jup transit scorpio-sag helps,


wishing well, kshantaram
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Thank you so much for the reading, I'm actually in a deep need of seeing a response so I appreciate it w my whole heart.

It's mostly accurate, lots of stress in my career and home, I'm trying to stay positive. In your words, seeking change but stuck. Saturn is really hitting me hard.

Thankfully there's no problem related to my physical health, however psychologically that's very true and in fact I'm gonna see a psychiatrist in a few days.

Apparently my natal Saturn in my 7th H and its difficult aspects to my natal Mars Mercury and Venus are affecting me badly.

Indeed this transit Sat opp my Venus has shown me how insecure I become in relationships one more time and even though I'm in a deep need of affection now I don't wanna get involved w anyone til I have my confidence back...

About foreign lands, that is my dream. I wanna move out so badly. I really do hope the Jupiter transit is going to help.

Will the Jupiter transit be in around December?
How long does the Ketu transit last? I have no knowledge about Ketu or its transits but I can say that it sounds a little bit scary.

Also, you said "sun lord 12th over 10th career under stress
and tending to foreign assignments perhaps; but I don't get the meaning, is it that my career is usually under stress and im tending to foreign assignments because of that?

Thank you for taking your time once again
 
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watcherofthesouth

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You will most definitely have the opportunity to travel and work abroad - look at Rahu at 2 degrees in Scorpio (real estate, investigations, research). 2 degrees is one of the best degrees you can have. Also Part of Fortune looks good too - that's in Sagittarius (foreign lands at 6 degrees which is the degree of work or health). You may meet/marry a foreign significant other. Your main issue will be that you may be very powerful with your words as it pertains to your work and it will effect your partnership (Jupiter). I would find out what Dasa your running in Vedic to get a general sense of timing.
 
Selina

Selina

Active member
watcherofthesouth said:
You will most definitely have the opportunity to travel and work abroad - look at Rahu at 2 degrees in Scorpio (real estate, investigations, research). 2 degrees is one of the best degrees you can have. Also Part of Fortune looks good too - that's in Sagittarius (foreign lands at 6 degrees which is the degree of work or health). You may meet/marry a foreign significant other. Your main issue will be that you may be very powerful with your words as it pertains to your work and it will effect your partnership (Jupiter). I would find out what Dasa your running in Vedic to get a general sense of timing.
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It sounds very exciting, I really do hope so :)

What do you mean by me being powerful with my words and it affects my partnership? And what aspect of Jupiter causes that??

Thank you!
 
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watcherofthesouth

Well-known member
Jupiter can be seen as a teacher, but mainly a female's husband as well as luck and expansion (Venus is the wife if you are reading a male's chart).

Power/tranformation/death is represented by Pluto and in your case it's in the 3rd house of communication/neighbors/publishing/short distant travel. So I see it as "powerful communicator".

Watch how your transit Jupiter gets closer to your natal Jupiter. You'll start a new cycle of optimism and growth. Journal on your most difficult days and then read it a few days later to give yourself perspective as you transition into a new period.
 
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