If it's wort anything, she told me how she was just getting out of a relationship with a capricorn that was headed off to school in another country. He suggested they stay together for sex but she declined. She was having issues with a former friend that she used to game with and was receiving a lot of "hate mail" at the time. Her "first" also had an issue with her and would also do the same thing. She had another relationship after that. She said she was very happy at first but then got bored or something. She was emotionally cheating on him (despite being absent from the relationship for at least a year, but they were still together, as she told me) with myself before I ended that as I found it unmoral. She ended up dropping him for me and we got together a few weeks later. During this time she was still having issues with one of her former friends. She ends up ignoring everyone; she's never been someone that faced anything in her life until I came around. She didn't realize, due to her low self-esteem, just how many guys treated her as a trophy piece. I was the first that ever treated like something other than that. She has had nothing but a long history of failed relationships, friendships, everything until I came around. *shrugs*
I'm glad this is going to finally end next week. I'm sick and tired of this. I really don't want to interfere if there is something holding us together under God's will, but if not, or if I can't find peace in knowing, the cord is being pulled. I don't want to pay for her karmic mistakes anymore. She has new friends and a boy toy for that. She's happy at my expense; no more. Let her and her circle deal with it. It's shocking how she has found substitutions. Her new "best friend" shares the same name (albeit the feminine variant), and her new boyfriend shares some features to me. I'm told I just have to get over her like it was nothing, but she just substitutes people to fill her void. That's cruel on these folk.
Good for her she's happy. I loved her once; and I probably still do. So, I'm happy for her. I'm glad she has finally found her way. But I no longer want to hurt at her expense anymore. She made her decision.