I have so many squares in my natal chart. I have always felt inner turmoil and like I was a walking irony-always fighting with myself. I went through depression and anxiety most of my life.
But I recently started looking at my chart and realize that I will probably have no luck with love, either. It's like I am meant to just do internal work my whole life and become a spiritual teacher who takes clients but lives alone with her cats. My Venus-Neptune square tells me I will forever dream and idealize love but never get it right so be doomed to never having a real relationship. My Venus Quintile Mars, I read somewhere that this indicates infertility and also issues with love. Well, I have PCOS and have doubted whether I would ever have children, too. So I guess all the things I feared most are confirmed looking at my natal chart. Is this the chart of someone who is meant to live a life of solitude?
But I recently started looking at my chart and realize that I will probably have no luck with love, either. It's like I am meant to just do internal work my whole life and become a spiritual teacher who takes clients but lives alone with her cats. My Venus-Neptune square tells me I will forever dream and idealize love but never get it right so be doomed to never having a real relationship. My Venus Quintile Mars, I read somewhere that this indicates infertility and also issues with love. Well, I have PCOS and have doubted whether I would ever have children, too. So I guess all the things I feared most are confirmed looking at my natal chart. Is this the chart of someone who is meant to live a life of solitude?