MantisReligiosa
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well, I am a partial lone wolf. I actually always wanted to have close friends, but seem terrible at relating. I guess the main problem is that, first of all, every time I got close to forming friendships I started to realize that relationships are a lot of work and require lots of maintenance..as in..you cannot simply not answer the phone for several months cause you're going through one of your Piscean "cannot even mutter a word, cause I'm so ******* far in my head" moods, which I often go through..
And second of all, cause I just feel I cannot be fully accepted for who I am, and don't have the time/energy to focus on maintaining an "image".
That being said, I often times do enjoy solitary activities, and always have, like long walks, listening to music, watching movies, reading, cooking, drawing, writing, swimming etc..but there are also those activities I love which require a partner, like tennis, scrabble, going on vacations(somehow, going somewhere by myself doesn't motivate me to get off my couch at all) and which make me feel ****** about not having any close relationships.
Overall, though, I'd say I deal with being alone quite well, compared to most people I've met. In fact, all of them. I don't know of anyone else who spent nearly 2 months of high school summer vacation inside their homes...
In my chart, I have some pretty annoying Saturn and Pluto influences, although small and numerous, not too dramatic.
I have Saturn-Neptune tightly conjunct in Capricorn, in my 4th house. Both trine my ascendant(7 degree orb, though) and sextile my Venus.
both are part of serious planetary pictures involving my sun, ascendant, and venus.
I have Saturn-Neptune/Moon-Mars-Jupiter=Sun..so that's a total of 6 planetary pictures involving either Saturn or Neptune and my Sun. Since they are conjunct my Sun, they also oppose my Asc.
And I also have Venus/Saturn-Neptune=Pluto.
I'd say the need for socializing comes from sun-venus conjunct, both conjunct DC(venus in the 6th house, though)
And second of all, cause I just feel I cannot be fully accepted for who I am, and don't have the time/energy to focus on maintaining an "image".
That being said, I often times do enjoy solitary activities, and always have, like long walks, listening to music, watching movies, reading, cooking, drawing, writing, swimming etc..but there are also those activities I love which require a partner, like tennis, scrabble, going on vacations(somehow, going somewhere by myself doesn't motivate me to get off my couch at all) and which make me feel ****** about not having any close relationships.
Overall, though, I'd say I deal with being alone quite well, compared to most people I've met. In fact, all of them. I don't know of anyone else who spent nearly 2 months of high school summer vacation inside their homes...
In my chart, I have some pretty annoying Saturn and Pluto influences, although small and numerous, not too dramatic.
I have Saturn-Neptune tightly conjunct in Capricorn, in my 4th house. Both trine my ascendant(7 degree orb, though) and sextile my Venus.
both are part of serious planetary pictures involving my sun, ascendant, and venus.
I have Saturn-Neptune/Moon-Mars-Jupiter=Sun..so that's a total of 6 planetary pictures involving either Saturn or Neptune and my Sun. Since they are conjunct my Sun, they also oppose my Asc.
And I also have Venus/Saturn-Neptune=Pluto.
I'd say the need for socializing comes from sun-venus conjunct, both conjunct DC(venus in the 6th house, though)