Thanks again,
Maybe I am being a little vague
I have been looking into this for the last month or so I guess, quite profoundly, as profound as my level of astrology is. I have read everything on astro.com, and have a pretty good idea of the 2 situations. I guess what I'm asking / looking for is someone that can read the charts quite professionally, and really delve into the matter.
What I mean by that is karmic influences, stelliums, grand trines, the north and south nodes, chiron, etc.
Maybe explaining my situation better will help as well.
Like I said before, I have been in an on and off rollercoaster relationship for the last 5 years of my life.. within months of meeting I was pregnant and we have a son together. I live in a foreign country far from everyone and his family, including himself, have become my family here. But this relationship has been HARD. It's like there is never constant rest, but at the same time we absolutely can't leave each other. And it's not just for our son, it's because every time we separate we get back together. And I truly believe neither of us is happy, but we just seem to be unable to separate.
I met someone half a year ago, whom I've actually known for 2 years. I am an extremely faithful person and haven't looked at another person, even when I was separated, nor thought about being with someone else. This was the only person, that physically, or intuitively, has ever made me turn my head. Something happened 6 months ago, and since then it's like I can't get this person out of my head. We are like 2 magnets, and everytime we see each other, I intuitively see and feel him. I try to stay away from him, but for some reason we just are drawn to each other. It's like walking into a crowded room and he will always be ( and vice versa ) the first person I see.
With my partner we have a double moon whammy, and also in our composite the moon is in the 7th house. From what I have understood for certain reasons, there will always be problems between us. And then we have saturn square the north node? Does this mean it's karmic?
With this other guy we have a stellium in the 1st house, we have sun opposed pluto and moon conjunct pluto (synastry) and his moon is in my 4th house. His saturn is conjunct my descendant and my sun in his 7th house, as well as my venus in his 8th. We also have saturn opposed the north node.. and from what I gather as well the chiron is not well placed meaning hurt?
I guess my question is, what man is actually the right person for me? Is this other guy just a fling? We don't have anything together because I keep pushing against it. But is there really something serious going on? Can it ever work with my partner?
I really am quite confused, and having saturn in the 3rd house, I need to get things figured out, because my head and my heart are driving me crazy!
Can you see the charts I posted, or should I post other ones?
Thanks again for your time!!!!