pudinnpop
Well-known member
Hi all,its been a very long time since ive posted on here and Ive debated heavily about doing so! But here I am and I think im ready to share!!
As a young woman i was very popular and social..Wasnt till i had my babies that all changed!! I got into one abusive relationship after another,and all were emotional abuse and verbal..Extreme cruelty as i now know that i dealt with narcasissts thro therapy!!
Anyways Ive become this shell if my former sef and lack freinds and never been one to connect with neighbours and I do have a uncomfotable feeling in group settings...I just dont know how to fit in anymore!!!Its been many years since ive had a girlfreind to hang with,just mostly hang out with family...
Ive attempted to go out and meet people and i have BUT i think i turn themoff someohow because they never stick...I think at times i talk so much and try to be overly funny and witty,that by the time we meet again im shy and at a lose for words!!!
My last relationship which ive written about on here with the last narcasisist lasted ten yrs and till this day I cant seem to find myself STILL!!..I used to be on here chatting alot but have withdrawn and feelin secure about posting anything here!! I fear i will make a fool out of myself with my interps etc.
All my friends are from online and i seem to be able to
blend in fine for the most part but again im not posting anything anywhere and have this strong fear of public failure!!
Astrologically I know i have saturn in the 11th in taurus,and some heavy moon,mars,pluto stuff that can indicate the abuse in my life..And I dont seem to be able to connect with women well..Alll the girlfreinds i ever have have aways stolen men from me ,not kidding!!
I was hoping that someone could look at my natal chart and see what else they can see!! Maybe having others look can bring me some perspective!!
As a young woman i was very popular and social..Wasnt till i had my babies that all changed!! I got into one abusive relationship after another,and all were emotional abuse and verbal..Extreme cruelty as i now know that i dealt with narcasissts thro therapy!!
Anyways Ive become this shell if my former sef and lack freinds and never been one to connect with neighbours and I do have a uncomfotable feeling in group settings...I just dont know how to fit in anymore!!!Its been many years since ive had a girlfreind to hang with,just mostly hang out with family...
Ive attempted to go out and meet people and i have BUT i think i turn themoff someohow because they never stick...I think at times i talk so much and try to be overly funny and witty,that by the time we meet again im shy and at a lose for words!!!
My last relationship which ive written about on here with the last narcasisist lasted ten yrs and till this day I cant seem to find myself STILL!!..I used to be on here chatting alot but have withdrawn and feelin secure about posting anything here!! I fear i will make a fool out of myself with my interps etc.
All my friends are from online and i seem to be able to
blend in fine for the most part but again im not posting anything anywhere and have this strong fear of public failure!!
Astrologically I know i have saturn in the 11th in taurus,and some heavy moon,mars,pluto stuff that can indicate the abuse in my life..And I dont seem to be able to connect with women well..Alll the girlfreinds i ever have have aways stolen men from me ,not kidding!!
I was hoping that someone could look at my natal chart and see what else they can see!! Maybe having others look can bring me some perspective!!