Thanks in advance for taking a look, and a double thanks for any input!
I am sure some may giggle at the title of "identity crisis" since this seems like a common occurrence in pretty much everyone. Even more so in women. Even more so in libras.
It's not that I don't know who I am but more like I don't know who I want to be or how to channel my strengths- or even what they are! I've taken multiple tests designed for job placements, created by head hunters, or even administered in schools for career and college counseling. None of them have been helpful since I seem to have equal scores in every "personality" trait/ strength/ interest EXCEPT for technical/ engineering skills. I don't know who I am because I could be just about anyone. Maybe my chart can do better than these tests?
In addition to indecision, I have SO MUCH ANGER. I have a hard time standing up for myself directly but have always had absolutely no issues in aggressively standing up for others including strangers and particularly for women. Nothing angers me more than hearing a man intimidate a woman with impatience, criticism, their voice, or their size. For some reason I think its simply UNFAIR when a man intimidates a woman but when I'm the woman in a similar equation I don't feel that same "unfairness". In my mind I feel as strong, as big, and as fearless as a man and could never identify as a victim. The issue is I get angry for a victim before they do and I perceive them as a victim even when they don't perceive themselves as one. I am the first to play devil's advocate when a girlfriend complains about a boyfriend, however if I hear about the boyfriend using language or general communication or tactics that are particularly hurtful to a woman coming from a man (or intimidating, oof that gets my goat) I'm the first to encourage aggressive "stand up for yourself" actions.
I'm Libra all over pretty much, and my mars is RETROGRADE so I don't understand why I'm always so ready for battle. I don't understand where this anger comes from and I wish I could channel that into my identity, and perhaps channel all of my libra into fixing that reactive anger.
Can you help me find some of my strengths in a more specific manner? Is there any way to combat all the negative aspects of all of my libra placements? Where do you see all of this anger coming from, and is it something that I need to fix or is it something that has a very useful purpose once I identify it as a strength?
I don't want to be so angry... or lost.
Anyway- Here is my super boring super libra chart attached.
I am sure some may giggle at the title of "identity crisis" since this seems like a common occurrence in pretty much everyone. Even more so in women. Even more so in libras.
It's not that I don't know who I am but more like I don't know who I want to be or how to channel my strengths- or even what they are! I've taken multiple tests designed for job placements, created by head hunters, or even administered in schools for career and college counseling. None of them have been helpful since I seem to have equal scores in every "personality" trait/ strength/ interest EXCEPT for technical/ engineering skills. I don't know who I am because I could be just about anyone. Maybe my chart can do better than these tests?
In addition to indecision, I have SO MUCH ANGER. I have a hard time standing up for myself directly but have always had absolutely no issues in aggressively standing up for others including strangers and particularly for women. Nothing angers me more than hearing a man intimidate a woman with impatience, criticism, their voice, or their size. For some reason I think its simply UNFAIR when a man intimidates a woman but when I'm the woman in a similar equation I don't feel that same "unfairness". In my mind I feel as strong, as big, and as fearless as a man and could never identify as a victim. The issue is I get angry for a victim before they do and I perceive them as a victim even when they don't perceive themselves as one. I am the first to play devil's advocate when a girlfriend complains about a boyfriend, however if I hear about the boyfriend using language or general communication or tactics that are particularly hurtful to a woman coming from a man (or intimidating, oof that gets my goat) I'm the first to encourage aggressive "stand up for yourself" actions.
I'm Libra all over pretty much, and my mars is RETROGRADE so I don't understand why I'm always so ready for battle. I don't understand where this anger comes from and I wish I could channel that into my identity, and perhaps channel all of my libra into fixing that reactive anger.
Can you help me find some of my strengths in a more specific manner? Is there any way to combat all the negative aspects of all of my libra placements? Where do you see all of this anger coming from, and is it something that I need to fix or is it something that has a very useful purpose once I identify it as a strength?
I don't want to be so angry... or lost.
Anyway- Here is my super boring super libra chart attached.