Having difficulty interpreting my chart as a whole.

Sun Moon Rising Stellium

Howdy folks!

The chart in question

So, in my quest to know myself, I've been casually obsessed with Astrology for a while. I find it to be a fascinating and enlightening science/art, and I know there's great power in the heavenly bodies. The symbolism really speaks to me, and I'm fascinated by the occult (heavy Scorpio/8th house energies?). However, I have an extremely difficult time interpreting my own natal chart. Many online resources have very interesting and helpful information about the individual pieces of a chart and how to look at each one, but I have a terribly frustrating time reconciling contradictions and integrating all the info into a cohesive view of my chart (and myself) as a whole. All I've been able to gather so far is that I'm a freak and a Plutonian weirdo with a divided self, who has potential that I'm unsure of how to unlock.

For example- I have many "difficult" aspects and placements in my chart (several squares, Saturn 12th house, Pisces rising, Sun in Libra opposing Moon in Taurus, etc.), I have an extreme lack of the Fire element, and an overabundance of Water due to a Stellium (I think?) in my Scorpio 8th house, including Pluto!

I also seem to have a T-square containing my Moon in Taurus, opposite Sun in Libra, with Uranus in Capricorn at the apex, making this a T-square by degree, which is an exceedingly confusing topic for a noob like me.

Along with this, I've been looking into "whole sign houses" after a recommendation from someone on Reddit, and it has been a fascinating alteration of what I had originally gleaned from my chart in the past. Viewing the chart this way moves all that Scorpio 8th house stuff into my 9th house, and my Sun conj Mercury into the 8th, which makes a lot of sense but somewhat disappoints me since I'm enamored with all things 8th house!

I've felt a lot of intense pain and loneliness since adolescence, mostly due to intimate relationships (8th house lesson focus/Pluto in Scorpio?) and being an "edgy nonconformist". As far as finding my life's purpose, I feel like what my heart intensely desires is counterproductive to a successful career (Sun opposing Moon?). I'm a musician, I play guitar and deeply enjoy dark, extreme metal (Venus in Scorpio?) but I don't know how to take this passion and manifest my destiny.

I feel like my chart is saying something that I'm not hearing about my struggles, specifically where I could be blocking myself (or being blocked) and sabotaging my growth and development. I've made a lot of progress, but I sense there's more I'm missing.


Any direction-pointing or two-cents-throwing would be immensely appreciated.

Lacanthect said:

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libra: Sun Moon Rising Stellium

All I've been able to gather so far is that I'm a freak and a Plutonian weirdo with a divided self, who has potential that I'm unsure of how to unlock.

I've felt a lot of intense pain and loneliness since adolescence, mostly due to intimate relationships (8th house lesson focus/Pluto in Scorpio?) and being an "edgy nonconformist". As far as finding my life's purpose, I feel like what my heart intensely desires is counterproductive to a successful career (Sun opposing Moon?).

I'm a musician, I play guitar and deeply enjoy dark, extreme metal (Venus in Scorpio?) but I don't know how to take this passion and manifest my destiny.

I feel like my chart is saying something that I'm not hearing about my struggles, specifically where I could be blocking myself (or being blocked) and sabotaging my growth and development. I've made a lot of progress, but I sense there's more I'm missing.

Any direction-pointing or two-cents-throwing would be immensely appreciated.

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hope this helps with clues to reflect further and consolidate,
do share-discuss feedbacks how true-insightful-helpful etc etc :

asc lord jup with venus and rahu NNode dark pit secretive fixed scorpio 8th,
rahu debilated, moon debilated aspect scorpio, vitiating wisdom;
research-occult-forensic chemistry aptitudes, passionate,
while not to overindulge into the dark occult pit and get stuck,

rise-fall in life, prone to chronic toxic urological-liver-kidney issues,
need for ancestral worship, prayers for welfare of ancestors,
observe fast No-moon evenings taking milk-fruits,
observe death anniversaries in the family religiously,
wear brown hessonite over pendant touching heart;

prayers for saint of faith for asc lord jup,
offer yellow flowers tues evenings;

jup lord 10th over 8th, career issues;

jup past one year transit jup-venus-rahu scorpio 8th opp moon,
scope for marriage-relationship-foreign relationship etc etc,
apart from promoting research-occult aptitudes and health issues.


lord mars scorpio placed 4th quadrant from moon,
debilation of rahu scorpio cancelled,
gradual improvements, health, occult, etc

sun-mer libra with venus retro towards libra, retro venus delayed results;
literary-oratory-artistic-PR-diplomacy aptitudes, growth-riches therethrough;
wavery mind, stormy anger when provoked;
debilation of sun cancelled by mars lord of elevation for sun,
again 4th quadrant from moon, gradual improvements and growth;
wear ruby over pendant touching heart strengthen debilated sun;


moon elevated taurus 2nd for family-finances-speech-education;
love of food-comforts, creative-energetic, stubborn;
moon lord 5th for luck-edu-romance-children-position;
wear pearl over silver pendant touching heart
to strengthen strong moon at mere zero deg;


mars leo 6th, accident prone, able to cope with opponents/competition;
inflammations of the heart-stomach-intestine; high self-pride; sportive;
may be aptitude for operations management in hospitals etc;
tech aptitudes, mechanics-foundry etc;

mars 9th lord over 6th, extra efforts needed towards luck;
currently rahu NNode transit mars-leo 6th, toxic health issues;

sat 12th pisces, sensitive, spiritual aptitudes, distant-foreign lands; fin constraints;
sat 12th lord over 12th, success amidst adversity;
sat 11th lord over 12th gains through foreign-distant lands;
prone to health issues head-feet-stones etc;

stress-struggles in health-employment-foreign lands; opp mars 6th,
sat retro towards own acq 12th for foreign lands,

sat past 3yrs transit sag 9th for change, distant lands and travels; slow-down;
sat now transit own cap 10th for career, rise-fall, fall while exiting capricorn;
growth through public admin, event management, foreign lands etc;

ketu separative SNode taurus 2nd, detachment from family-finances;
pain-injury-surgery throat-dental etc;
moon-ketu taurus, love of food-comforts, extra stubborn, sharp speech/singing;
dentistry, textile garments, tailoring, ENT Specialist, cashier, cooking, etc etc


jup asc lord year end and come 019 moves to own sag 9th
enhancing luck-education-teaching-advisory roles,
trine aries 2nd for family-fin-speech, trine mars-leo 6th for health-employment;


do promptly ack, how relevant the reading and the roles of each natal planet,
traits-talents-health-career etc etc


wishing well, kshantaram

Thank you very much for your interpretation!

I'm not very knowledgeable when it comes to Vedic astrology, but it's fascinating nonetheless.

So some seemingly important points:

Ancestor worship: You mention this after addressing Jupiter, Venus, North Node (Rahu) in Scorpio. Could you comment on this more? Why do these placements indicate a need for ancestor worship? My maternal grandfather (whom I was pretty close with) passed away about two years ago, and his loss was hard. As far as ancestors from further back in my family history, I don't know much about them, or how much they're affecting my life, if at all.

You said my Sun, Moon, and North Node (Rahu) are all debilitated due to their placements, but the debilitation of the Sun and Rahu are cancelled by the placement of Mars. And the Moon is exalted/elevated in Taurus, but at the 0 degree, which is debilitating? This seems to be a pretty complex situation, and I wonder if it explains my feelings about being "held back", or how I perceive the ways some people react to me. I certainly feel I have a strangely arranged energetic/spiritual structure- almost as if it's organized in such a way to facilitate something while making many other things difficult.

I don't know a whole lot about house lords and chart rulers, so I apologize if I'm totally missing the point. Could you comment further on the dynamic of having a debilitated Sun opposite an exalted Moon? Or on how the debilitations of those planets being cancelled/eased affects everything else?

As far as Venus retrograde bestowing delayed results, that makes a lot of sense. My artistic and romantic endeavors seem to always be stalled/halted/delayed even though they figure prominently in my heart and mind. It likely has a lot to do with insecurity and lack of confidence (seemingly because of having my Sun debilitated). There seems to be a theme of difficult/malefic aspects in my chart that seem like weaknesses or setbacks, but are really there to strengthen me in a specific way. I've long felt like I'm being prepared for something....

With Mars being the 9th lord over the 6th, requiring extra effort towards luck, I think that's a pretty accurate statement. I feel like things are always "waiting in the wings" for me, but I have to show up and take action/work towards certain ends to have luck find me, rather than having pleasant/beneficial situations just fall into my lap.

Near the end of your post, you wrote in bold lettering about my recent natal Jupiter Return, and it's movement into 2019 into the 9th house. I feel like this recent Jupiter Return has certainly shown that I'm beginning a new chapter in life, I feel a new focus and determination to really figure myself out, and I feel a closer connection with spirit/god/the universe- specifically that the "divine plan" is playing out perfectly and beautifully, even though I've suffered. Do you think Jupiter's movement in 2019 will be beneficial or bring new opportunities?


Again, thank you for taking the time to respond to my post. I really feel that there's something important I need to see astrologically, and any new perspectives and advice are helpful.

It's an interesting chart, you have a weird grand cross, your moon on 0 Taurus is more of a boundary walking planet it could easily be in aries and i hear you say you lack fire inside you but it might really not be the case if you look closer, you have mars in leo( that's a desire from your soul to shine) , mc in Sagittarius ( that's a fiery path you walk to the top in life) So what do you think? Plus the grand cross sits somewhat more in the cardinal signs except moon in taurus( which might be design to nurture your need for comfort) mars in leo is fiery enough for me, then you have sun in libra too that's fire there too.

Thanks for your input.

The reason I mentioned a lack of fire was due to the output of a "Natal Chart Element Calculator" that said I have something like 18% fire and 40+% water, etc. I agree, though, that I may have been overlooking the importance of the fire I do have in my chart. I just seem to lack some understanding of how to use what little fire there is.

As far as Mars in Leo, I for sure feel a desire to shine, through some kind of renown or recognition. I'd be lying if I said fame was overrated (who doesn't want to be appreciated and liked by many?). And with the MC in Sagittarius, and a "fiery path walked to the top in life", does that imply some kind of controversial/dramatic entrance into the public eye? My birthday is within the Cusp of Drama and Criticism, so that would make unfortunate sense, but may be for the best.

It can all be pretty confusing which is why sometimes I'll stick to signs/degrees and look for trines and how to use them - where you can see your best option for success/happiness/prosperity. I would agree with Yuriv, you have a lot more fire than you think. If you have Aries in the 2nd house you may be very motivated to earn. Your Taurus energy is good - the Taurus degrees are 2, 14 and 26 - look at how many of your planets are at that degree. Taurus (2, 14 can mean real estate and/or money - moon can also mean home (you could feel at home in real estate). Your Ascendant is Pisces at the Taurus degree (making money/Taurus, being creative/Pisces). It means your Pisces side can be confused, possibly lazy and gravitate towards doing two things (Pisces) but you'll probably find a way to make money with your music. Taurus represents a bull so sometimes you need a kick and be pushed in order to get out of your comfort zone.

Finding a real estate job will help support your creativity (2 jobs). Your MC shows foreign energy and your music might apply to foreign lands in some way (you could be like Hoff and become a sensation in Germany). Sagittarius can also mean the Entertainment Industry. I would suggest taking a trip or two to foreign places and that will inspire you and motivate you. If your short on travel funds, perhaps researching (Scorpio) subjects that interest you that pertain to music or your creative endeavors. Use the Sagittarius/Pisces or Scorpio energies in positive ways and you'll feel improvement. Find a rocky (Saturn) beach (Pisces) and play your music to counter the delays or restrictions that you might feel from Saturn.

Thank you, watcherofthesouth.

It does all get pretty confusing for sure. I certainly do feel my Piscean tendency towards confusion, laziness, and dissipated attention/energy.

As far as finding a real estate job, that's certainly an interesting idea. I'm in IT working for an insurance brokerage while I try to figure the rest of my life out, and real estate is certainly a possible future at this point. The idea of travelling appeals to me greatly, I yearn to see foreign lands, because I've never been outside of the U.S.

Other than research, what ways could I positively use the Sagittarius/Pisces and Scorpio energies? Just continuing to focus on music/finding a way to travel? I've been researching loads of stuff since about 2014 when my "dark night of the soul" was in full swing. Astrology popped up then, and has stuck in my mind since, obviously.

Thanks again for your input, any help and advice is appreciated!

Well, Scorpio not only represents real estate but insurance too.. so your journey is definitely well-represented by your chart. I am a Sun/Pisces with Moon/Scorpio and I've been told that combo is not based in reality When I think Sagittarius, I think long distance journeys. It can also represent higher learning and entertainment as I said. Your location is key to feeling like you have some momentum. Are you near people? What kind of climate? If you are too isolated you'll obsess (Scorpio) and think too hard and just swim around in circles. I'd say your first step is to find some like-minded folks who share your interests. Also, you'll feel less stalled in your career once Saturn transits out of your 10th house. I'd use this time for studying and expanding what you know and what interests you.

That's extremely synchronistic- the Jupiter in Scorpio transit that started last year is my Jupiter return to it's natal position in Scorpio. Within that time I went through a training course that helped me climb out of waiting tables for a living, and put me into a much more financially stable and secure position in IT. Scorpio being linked to insurance is a pretty mind-blowing "coincidence"...

As far as location, working with people, climate, etc., I'm in an interesting position with my job.

Working IT for this company requires me to interact with many people on a daily basis, helping them with general computer issues. The climate here is wonderfully laid-back, it's a "corporate" job without all the corporate micromanagement/culture that I've heard usually permeates such environments. This is my first "corporate" job so I don't have anything to compare it to, but what I've experienced so far aligns with my workplace needs pretty well (down time, autonomy, reasonable comfort, extremely laid-back supervisor, etc..)

I'm also blessed to have a very, very close friend who's pretty like-minded, though more rational/logically-oriented in his thinking. He's got a very critical mind, and helps me see through blocks in my perception that my ego throws up. He's like a brother to me, we became friends in high school and have grown closer through many wild and zany experiences since. Oddly/synchronistically, the woman he's been dating for the last three years (they're very compatible) was born on the same day as me, exactly one year later. This seems to suggest that our synastry for friendship is fated/astrologically designed, as is his relationship with his girlfriend.

Before becoming close with him I felt extremely lonely and isolated, like nobody understood me or wanted to. I still feel like I can't share who I really, truly am and what I think with most other people, so I'm deeply grateful for my friend's presence in my life. As far as sharing interests, he and I have almost identical music tastes, and we both play the guitar and write music together. He taught me how to play, and it's been a pretty rough road- I had a lot of issues with his criticism at first, feeling like he was personally attacking me when criticizing my playing or writing, when he was really just trying to help me grow as a musician. For this, I am deeply indebted to him and eternally grateful for his patience and persistence as my teacher/friend/brother.

Thanks again, watcherofthesouth. I'm enjoying the introspection provided by your responses. Things are getting interesting for sure!

Yesterday I noticed transiting Neptune is conjunct my Ascendant, and my birthday is in 15 days...

I'd like to take this opportunity to add some more variables to this chart analysis I'm working on.

Recently, I noticed if I add the drawing of aspects from the Ascendant, Midheaven, and asteroids, I get what looks like a Star of David in my chart. I've included pictures of this from two different natal chart casting programs. It doesn't appear to be perfectly symmetrical, and seems to be composed more of the asteroid placements than planet placements, though planets are involved in the trines that compose the "star" pattern.

I've read that having this pattern in one's natal chart potentially conveys some amount of "divine protection/assistance". I've definitely had some extremely close call moments in my life, where I've felt that only aid outside of myself could account for me not encountering disastrous consequences. Supposedly this pattern also shows a propensity to have great amounts of energy, but dispersed due to the spread of it's flow throughout the chart, caused by the star pattern.

So this has thrown a huge wrench in my analysis, and I'm not sure what to make of it. Should I disregard this, since it's presence in my chart is mostly dues to the placements of the asteroids? Is there more importance here? Does it explain anything?

Thanks again to everyone who's responded so far!

Thanks again, watcherofthesouth. I'm enjoying the introspection provided by your responses. Things are getting interesting for sure!

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Glad to help and thank you for the feedback.

Yesterday I noticed transiting Neptune is conjunct my Ascendant, and my birthday is in 15 days...

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As Neptune approached your natal Saturn, I think it may have forced you to think and rethink your creative side and practice more (especially during Saturn retro). The pain of hearing feedback (and let's face it, not everyone is skilled at giving it even though it may be constructive) could have been the Saturn energy. You accepted it and turned the energy into a positive outcome. As Neptune moves away from Saturn, you will be seeing more fruits of your efforts (perhaps a corporate holiday party that needs a guitarist or some other cool opportunity could present itself.)

Transiting Neptune can mean a lot of confusion in any house that it moves through so your creative (any Neptunian) pursuits will definitely offset this. I would add as many Neptune themes as you can to keep you focused (pale blue/violet/mauve colors, symbols, dolphins).

Not sure about this one - but perhaps someone else can give perspective..

Lacanthect said:

I'd like to take this opportunity to add some more variables to this chart analysis I'm working on.

Recently, I noticed if I add the drawing of aspects from the Ascendant, Midheaven, and asteroids, I get what looks like a Star of David in my chart. I've included pictures of this from two different natal chart casting programs. It doesn't appear to be perfectly symmetrical, and seems to be composed more of the asteroid placements than planet placements, though planets are involved in the trines that compose the "star" pattern.

I've read that having this pattern in one's natal chart potentially conveys some amount of "divine protection/assistance". I've definitely had some extremely close call moments in my life, where I've felt that only aid outside of myself could account for me not encountering disastrous consequences. Supposedly this pattern also shows a propensity to have great amounts of energy, but dispersed due to the spread of it's flow throughout the chart, caused by the star pattern.

So this has thrown a huge wrench in my analysis, and I'm not sure what to make of it. Should I disregard this, since it's presence in my chart is mostly dues to the placements of the asteroids? Is there more importance here? Does it explain anything?

Thanks again to everyone who's responded so far!

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Not sure about this one - maybe someone else can provide perspective..

Glancing at your chart, the first thing that caught my eye (other than your obvious scorpio stellium in 8th) was your moon and mercury. Things I usually note first are anaretic degrees, tight aspects, and inconjuncts.

There's a subtle emphasize on Mercury/Moon in that it doubles back to Venus.

You have two anaretic degrees, the Moon at 0'29 and Mercury 29'13. Interesting enough they both oppose each other and are both naturally ruled by Venus. Venus is found retrograde in scorpio, belonging in that 8th house stellium. Venus is the house cusp rulers of 3rd and 8th. It's naturally ruling the 2nd, 7th. 2nd cusp is in Aries and Mars is actually conjunct the 6th cusp tightly. 6th house cusp is in Leo, its planetary ruler is the Sun, Sun is in Libra. Mars rules the 2nd house cusp since it's in Aries. 2nd house cusp is naturally ruled by Venus + Moon is in 2nd house. 7th is in Virgo, which takes us back to Mercury at 29 in Libra.

Also, Pisces rising. With that, I look to your chart ruler Neptune and it's in the 11th house w/ Uranus in a T-square. With risings it's always wise to check decan rulers as well, with the Pisces rising in the 2nd decan, it's also ruled by the Moon. Moon is in the 2nd house etc, (its influence was kind of debunked above)

So what's the point of all of that synthesizing? I'm just trying to point out how important the Moon/Mercury opposition was. Planets at an anaretic degree are crisis oriented. And often charts with planets at an anaretic degree have a theme surrounding them.

Anyways, when you said you felt isolated growing up and you were an edgy non-conformist, I'd blame your Saturn for the isolation. Saturn in 12th is difficult. Saturn sets limitations, demands the absolute most, and overall is very hard. 12th house is the subconscious. For a child growing up, the 12th house is the development of thought structure which is directly linked to ego. Saturn in 12th can end up in anxiety and pessimistic. Also, Saturn is inconjunct your mars. That leads to being not motivational and being too critical of your efforts. Sometimes it's could have been hard to do things because you felt too critical. Mars conjunct the 6th house cusp inconjunct Saturn suggests that your parent's advice/motivation for you could have been too critical. (while you were young, especially your mother)

Combine that with your obivous 8th house stellium and the Moon/Mercury polarity + T-square growing up mentally could have been tough.

Let's talk about your moon now. It's in a T-square. Moon square Uranus/Neptune shows that you have trouble processing your emotions. Moon/Uranus shows that your moods come and go, sometimes your cold/distant, sometimes your loving. Moon/Neptune sometimes you delude yourself and you're not sure. Maybe you feel too wistful about things, and combine that w/ your Saturn pessimism that was such a trap. Moon square Mars showed that you were also terribly emotional about things. And combine it with all of this confusion. Moon opposition Sun/Mercury shows that you need to feel safe/good in order to express freely. Moon/sun isn't a tough aspect or moon/mercury. It just shows you can be fickle about what you stand for.

The focal is Uranus/Neptune in order to solve your T-square. And with that it'd be technology/creativity. Uranus in 11th does show zest for tech. Neptune in 11th shows to do things with groups of friends, give back to the community and it'll give back to you.

Now with all of that acknowledged Moon/Mercury opposition should be mentioned. Moon at 0 shows that you tended to overreact more than others, and or emotions were specifically foreign. Mercury at 29 shows that you were very knowledgeable. Usually planets at 29 shows that a person knows a lot of information regarding that planet. A trap i'm assuming you fell into was that you understand your emotions, and what you went through. But it was hard for you to actually just feel.

Now with that 8th house stellium, it was your outlet. Occult things obviously fascinated you. 8th house stellium just shows that you had a lot of depth with you. (okay my brain is going dry from writing so much so i'm just gonna end here)

Something to touch about, is your progressed ascendant. It's now in Aries and your progressed sun is also in Scorpio. So i'm guessing around 16-17 (when Pisces changed into Aries) your view of the word as a wistful fantastical place was modified into more of opportunities that can be pursued.

[if I interpreted anything wrong my apologies]

Samantha Bean said:

That would be a yes.

Asteroids have no LIFE of their own. All they do is modify the energy signatures of the planets. And so, asteroids cannot be made as pivot points in cognitive configurations like T-Square, Grand Trines, Grand Squares, Yods, etc.

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Thank you Samantha Bean. I was initially intrigued by this configuration of aspects, but I felt that since it was mostly because of asteroid placement that it perhaps wasn't as significant as I hoped it would be.

Thank you very much for your interpretation, arandompebble. Quite thought provoking and startlingly spot-on in a few places.

So when you say my anaretic Mercury and Moon are part of a "theme" with importance placed on Venus, does that mean Venusian themes/energies play a role in the synthesis of the energy of these planets? Could you comment more on the "theme" of Venus ruling the Moon/Mercury opposition?

To comment on this, it seems like Mercurial energy is one I feel quite comfortable with, and my communication is often reasonably articulate and proficient. However, I often notice my emotions tend to cloud my communications with others (Moon opposing Mercury/Sun in Libra?) and lead to disagreements or harsh words that I later regret. I also often suppress certain thoughts or words I want to interject in favor of allowing the other person in the conversation to not feel attacked or challenged, especially when I know they'll disagree or argue with me- this has been a theme for much of my life. My emotions sometimes seem to be operating in direct opposition to what's needed in the moment. Am I supposed to integrate Venusian (love) energy in my communications with others to remember to separate my emotions from my communications? Or to soften them?

Regarding Saturn in the 12th house. Your interpretation of this placement seems pretty accurate. I certainly developed an amount of pessimism and anxiety that I've been dealing with for some time- especially regarding my interactions with others. The extreme subconscious demand and criticism of Saturn could have manifested externally as my pretty religious and domineering father, with whom I clashed for most of my youth. He was always trying to force me into structures that he saw as correct and beneficial, without helping me see why he was trying to force me into them. It was always "Because I'm your father and I said so" rather than "If you want to live life from a mature man from a more stable and secure position/perspective, these steps are necessary..." He was (and still is, though I appreciate it now) very, very critical. My mother is a Virgo sun, so she has analytical and critical qualities, but her's are far more dialed back and have always been merged with a nurturing motherly energy.

Saturn inconjunct Mars creating a lack of motivation due to an overly-critical view of myself and my actions is exactly correct. I have had a lot of struggle in my creative pursuits because I used to have a hard time with comparing myself to people who had already mastered an art form/technique that I was working on- leaving myself feeling extremely mediocre by comparison, and sapping my motivation to continue honing my craft. I used to draw at a younger age, and I distinctly remember becoming frustrated with my drawing skill because I couldn't draw as detailed or realistically as what I saw in my head, and I gave up. Now I play guitar, and I think I've recently developed a more healthy view of my skill as a player, being inspired by those I look up to rather than feeling like I'll never achieve their skill level.

With the Moon aspects- these are quite telling and accurate as well. You said my Moon square Uranus means I have difficulty processing my emotions- somewhat true. It's mostly because the intensity of my emotions is immense, especially negative ones (Square Mars?), and I have extreme difficulty separating them from my words and actions- they're usually so strong I can't see any separation. This is something I've been working on recently. I've been trying to be aware of my negative reactions to people and events, and to not allow those negative emotions to hijack my actions and words. It's been painful and difficult, but I've made progress. Certainly still very confusing- especially because I often feel like the progress I've made has vanished, and I'm back to square 1.

I do tend to be quite a bit more emotionally reactive and intense than many other people, and I get a lot of flack for it from my friends- looping back to how I have always felt that nobody has, can, wants to or will understand who I am within.

I'm pretty unsure of how to use the Uranus/Neptune energy to solve the T-square. I'd like to think being in a band of fellow musicians and creating music together (something I yearn for quite deeply) would be the answer. Or something else with technology and creativity- I used to want to design videogames (specifically the level and character modeling), but was dissuaded in the past from pursuing this by myself and those around me who said it wouldn't be a stable/smart career.

I'm sorry you felt dried out around the 8th House Stellium part! This is something that's intrigued me quite a lot- lots of resonance with "8th house things" in my life. Deaths in the family have been extremely surreal experiences, I felt stirred to dive into Occult knowledge, and I don't fear it either. I feel like there's much more still for me to discover and experience there...

About my ascendant in Aries, at around 16-17 I definitely became extremely jaded and thought I already understood everything about the world and what was wrong with it, and I actually felt corralled into the life of a slave worker rather than seeing bountiful opportunity. This is another theme I've been struggling with as I've grown.

Again, thank you for taking the time out of your day to look at my chart. I greatly appreciate your input!

That is actually a very beautiful metaphor for describing the effects of planetary placements/energy on the human psyche!

Your favorite astrologer sounds like a very astute and learned individual. Thank you for bringing their wonderful interpretation to this thread!

It makes perfect sense, honestly. Since asteroids are, for the most part, only the fragments of long-dead planets or other interstellar objects that have been collected in our solar system, it would follow that they wouldn't produce any energies of their own, but only modify the energies emitted by the "living" planets in our solar system.

Interesting and useful spice indeed!