Hi YoGod !!
Nice name ..
I recast your chart into a vedic one. Whst strikes me is Saturn and Moon in Scorpio Anuradha in the second house of wealth. You have a wealth of abundant spiritual energy. But the moon and Saturn are conjunct in Scorpio. Anuradha star in scorpio is again ruled by Saturn and wants to do things the right way. There is no compromise when it comes to ideals and it accepts punishments ( and punishes too). Maybe that is why this path may seem difficult.
Asc Ketu in Libra Swati ruled by the wind..this is quite the 'wild child'. So Libra Swati can make one reckless too , but there is an obsession for justice. Do you play some wind instrument very well? This placement is like the wind and rules dispersal but can attract money too.
Currently you are under Ketu Mahadasha and your life path may be moving towards Rahu in Aries Ashvini. You may learn to be your own person. May learn to pt your foot down.Succeed in life through own efforts but you can forge alliances and contracts with suitable people.
So the good times will come. Again Venus in Aries Ashvini ..venus Mahadasha till 2031 which will propel you.
You may adopt a devil may care attitude later moving from the depth of emotion.
You are likely to find a cheerful, self starting partner who may lift you out of this mindset.
May i ask in which area you majored? There are strong indications of being a healer.