Hello,
I am turning 30 on May 7. If I look back when I was 15, I never thought of myself having a life which I have now. In a lot of ways, I feel I have failed.
I live alone in a foreign country basically for money(but I am able to support my family which is nice)
I failed to make stable friendships
I failed to buy a condo
I failed terribly in relationship(I am strongly considering to let him go by end of 2020)
Work is okay, not super satisfactory, I would like to change but my visa is ending in Mar 2021 and I do not know with this recession if I will be able to get a renewal - future with respect to work looks complicated
I wish to study management but does not look like I will be able to manage money, at least some of it
The house construction for my family in hometown is on hold for unknown time and they are suffering living in a rental for which they do not have money - it was my fault I forced them to execute this project
I am glad I have not lost my mind yet, I feel trapped, I don't feel a satisfactory level of happy.
A lot of grief is still associated with family troubles which no matter how much I try to resolve, it stays. Another set of multiple failures.
I did not mean to say I have all the problems of the world, but I feel I have failed myself terribly even when people see me as a very successful content person.
I hope this Solar Return could bring in some positivity in life that it's not as bad as I see it and soon it will be a little easier than ever to thrive.
Please read my solar return chart and let me know, anything would suffice. Thank you very much!
I am turning 30 on May 7. If I look back when I was 15, I never thought of myself having a life which I have now. In a lot of ways, I feel I have failed.
I live alone in a foreign country basically for money(but I am able to support my family which is nice)
I failed to make stable friendships
I failed to buy a condo
I failed terribly in relationship(I am strongly considering to let him go by end of 2020)
Work is okay, not super satisfactory, I would like to change but my visa is ending in Mar 2021 and I do not know with this recession if I will be able to get a renewal - future with respect to work looks complicated
I wish to study management but does not look like I will be able to manage money, at least some of it
The house construction for my family in hometown is on hold for unknown time and they are suffering living in a rental for which they do not have money - it was my fault I forced them to execute this project
I am glad I have not lost my mind yet, I feel trapped, I don't feel a satisfactory level of happy.
A lot of grief is still associated with family troubles which no matter how much I try to resolve, it stays. Another set of multiple failures.
I did not mean to say I have all the problems of the world, but I feel I have failed myself terribly even when people see me as a very successful content person.
I hope this Solar Return could bring in some positivity in life that it's not as bad as I see it and soon it will be a little easier than ever to thrive.
Please read my solar return chart and let me know, anything would suffice. Thank you very much!
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