The19thLaw
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So I have been thinking about it and came clean with her this week about some of the games she has played with me, in a professional manner of course. She gave me clarity on things as well and what was going on, I asked of her that we maintain honesty in all things moving forward.
Unfortunately, I still see myself being attached to this woman even though I have yet to meet her in real life. Quite frankly, I doubt I ever really will either and maybe that is for the best. The more I think about it, this attraction gradually built up and then it consumed me like a virus.
When I first saw her, I was not into her in any way. It was not until about 5 to 6 months of working with her that I started to become attached and I think what drove me was the jealousy. When she started to do me dirty and professionally undermine my results or put me in a bad place with my projects, it made me angry and that anger consumed me like none other.
From there, a sort of attraction built up to where I even saw myself seeing her in a favorable way physically. I cannot believe it, I really can't.
Now I have been trying to keep her out of my mind but for about 4 to 5 months or so now, it has been tough to. I think I have thought about her almost every day, part of it due to the fact that we work together and part of it because she just consumes me.
Thankfully I had a date the past weekend and have a couple more this week, those seem to take my mind off of her. I am even going back to watching **** to take my mind off of my feelings for her.
All I can say is dear god, what the h3ll did I miss in this synastry. No significant 8th house contacts and even looking back at it, Pluto contacts are quite minimal.
Unfortunately, I still see myself being attached to this woman even though I have yet to meet her in real life. Quite frankly, I doubt I ever really will either and maybe that is for the best. The more I think about it, this attraction gradually built up and then it consumed me like a virus.
When I first saw her, I was not into her in any way. It was not until about 5 to 6 months of working with her that I started to become attached and I think what drove me was the jealousy. When she started to do me dirty and professionally undermine my results or put me in a bad place with my projects, it made me angry and that anger consumed me like none other.
From there, a sort of attraction built up to where I even saw myself seeing her in a favorable way physically. I cannot believe it, I really can't.
Now I have been trying to keep her out of my mind but for about 4 to 5 months or so now, it has been tough to. I think I have thought about her almost every day, part of it due to the fact that we work together and part of it because she just consumes me.
Thankfully I had a date the past weekend and have a couple more this week, those seem to take my mind off of her. I am even going back to watching **** to take my mind off of my feelings for her.
All I can say is dear god, what the h3ll did I miss in this synastry. No significant 8th house contacts and even looking back at it, Pluto contacts are quite minimal.