Looks like changes in career or work and substantial mental makeover's were on your mind for new studies to enter into a new profession
Yes!! However, these weren't good career changes, at least they didn't feel that way at the time. I suppose this is why it's important to always compare the SR chart with the natal: Saturn was transiting my 6th house and squaring my MC at 23 degrees Aquarius. I was prohibited from going in the direction I wanted to.
Mental makeovers? That part is true too. I had stopped taking anti-depressants, which had made me manic. But now I felt... well,
depressed. I felt like I was going out of my mind. My OCD was growing worse. I grew withdrawn, quieter and deleted all social media. At the same time, I was determined to make some positive changes for myself; I became more organized, etc. I wanted to reinvent myself.
, as well as a relationship that underwent transforming ideals or a breakup completely? Venus is also very close to your Sun (lord of the future 2nd Taurus and lord of 7th house Libra) so one relationship might have ended to enter into a new one?
Nope :/ That's what I find so confusing about this chart! With a stellium in the 7th, including a Venus-Sun conjunction, you would think this would be a year focused on relationships but nope! This year was completely devoid of any romance whatsoever, nothing serious, nothing casual. In fact, I felt more isolated than I had ever been. I was very lonely. I had lost a couple of my close friends and I felt like had no friends. I was afraid to leave my room. I was afraid to talk to anyone. I physically couldn't talk to anyone. Every time I would talk to anyone, I would overthink everything, I was afraid of embarrassing myself. The Mercury in Retrograde here is the only thing that makes sense. Does the conjunction to the North Node make it stronger?
However, this year was very others-focused in a way. I had an increased awareness of what other people thought of me. There were only two people I talked to regularly and neither were people I particularly liked. They were both pretty narcissistic and I couldn't be myself around them. I couldn't be honest with them yet I talked to them anyway for two reasons 1. I was lonely 2. more importantly, I felt like
they needed it. I felt more like a therapist to them than a friend. I felt like I was losing my integrity and it was driving me insane. It's like my personality changed completely and became the opposite of who I am used to. I was afraid to be honest with them about anything because they would freak out at me and/or abandon me or threaten suicide, etc.
Mars as host (energy motivator) to the Prima Facie 1st house is right up there in the 9th house in Sag. giving you some umph to take last effort glimpses at subject matters of 8th/7th houses-addressing them of a psychological higher minded decision making energy, Mars is near your 10th house (just beginning to instrument some ground breaking preparations to change your life in a different direction) cusp -certain destiny issues that needed your attention.
I guess so. With Mars in the 9th Sag and square the Moon in Virgo, I felt very anxious and overworked at school. I was taking 6 classes (which is more than the usual recommendation) and had panic attacks in class that more closely resembled psychotic breaks.
Overall, it was a very horrible year but a quick glance at the chart and to me, it doesn't look horrible so I was interested in hearing what others had to say.
ANYONE ELSE HAVE A CHART? I'd like to try interpreting one!