In last 4 years i can honestly say i lost everything. My home,my property (nothing was left) my only sister died commited suicide, my mentally ill mother died, i was left alone with no one.
Then i lost my health.
What do you think? Can i have my dreams come true..start a family..live a long life.
I am wondering what is the meaning of all of this..to be honest it has been a strugle,lifelong strugle. I have suffered so much that this is the reason i think i got sick.
After losing my money,property,my family i thought the worst is over but then i got sick.. .
Why is this happening is this "written" in my birth chart..is this due to bad progressions and transits,but then again it has been life long strugle.
Im tired but there is hope. Someone i love very deeply just returned in my life.I have been suffering without him.
Hello Adeline,
first of all - good to hear that a person you love returned to you just now - so you are not alone anymore.
After all what happened to you - it is very human to ask for a "why".
You talked about a long life struggling. After having looked at your chart - I would agree that it started already very early - probably already some before own birth.
Your mercury rules your 2nd house- house of physical body existence house, house of self-protection, defending own territory and own space and own values- setting boundaries to find a rest to restore your body, your personal property, skills and gifts you are born with and to earn money with - your money income- selfesteem and feeling yourself worthful, safe and welcomed with /in your physical body and gender.
Mercury as well rules your 3rd house- your personal manner to communicate, to perceive informations and process informations, your menal mind, thoughts and house of siblings.
Your mercury is in 12th house (also house of prenatal experience before own birth) - still sitting above horizon - looking like still hesitating to jump into the physical body and into life.
Mercury is in a moon ruled 12th house - moon itself in 8th house - house of death and near to death experience, shock and trauma experience at point of your birth. Moon as one of the female planets degree exact inconjuncts venus as second female planet in 12th house. Venus as your 4th house ruler - showing also own mother and how she experienced her pregnancy with you and what feelings and thoughts you might have witnessed and taken over from her - as your high sensitive pisces moon in 8th house has very fine sensitive antennas for - especially for emotions like fear, anger or thoughts about death and existential danger. Able to store it in own subconsciousness and own memory - limitless (pisces) for long.
Your mercury is on special sensitive and vulnerable degree of 0° leo - between two signs- cancer/moon ruled and leo/sun ruled - between two choices - being female and being male - between two worlds - the visible and the invisible and kinda indescisive between two chairs - two opportunities - scared to make a choice and to lose one of 2 opportunities - and afterwards to discover having made the wrong choice.
0° planet placements are said to have brought a spiritual task into this life to develop more and to gain experience with and to use it to help people with - and is a "sleeping" special mediator skill - what can be woken up in a special spark energy way -if a slow moving transit planet changes sign and enters 0 degree - activating same time all your 2nd house and 3rd house matters to come up.
And this is what happened in the past - starting with a very special transit in May 2018 with transit uranus - entering 0° taurus - in a challenging and tensioned and stressful way for you - squaring your mercury forth and backwards one year long. Afterwards followed by transit jupiter entering 0° capricorn in Dec 2019 - inconjuncting your mercury. And last year followed by transit saturn entering 0°aquarius - opposing your mercury.